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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Student
Jul 18, 2023
197
For example, if they could have been a classical musicians, whatever...

I've been reading a couple days about Georges Dumezil, a famous french philologist and mythologist, etc. Guy apparently could read in over 30 languages; which is very impressive indeed, and very highly commendable. I can understand how that guy could contribute meaningfully to something important -- and, indeed, he did. Apperently, he learned greek, latin and german in his youth... I always wonder how cool that would have been, to be able to understand the massive world of greece and rome, and appreciate the beauty and intricacy of their culture from such an early age; nowadays, classical students in some places don't even have to learn the languages. Maybe I'm just bitter; i'm not much better than monolingual, do not have, and am unlikely to have the prospect of any sort of higher education worth the name(i'm basically borderline retarded.) Even though im my youth that massively interested me, when I started to get into these topics... but quickly i just realized any serious pursuit of this is above my low intelligence, which is basically a prime candidate for eugenics. I realize I'm just too stupid to do anything that truly mattered to me at a truly important level. Oh, sure, everybody can keep to the "low" level, and read some guidebooks or primers on "interesting" subjects, etc.

But basically, being too stupid, and having to spend your life in the dark and heavy trammels of a 9 to 5 job, you don't have the capacity or the time to meaningfully engage with things that might have revealed themselves from behind the oridnary scenes of life, with a light which implied that there's genuinly meaningful and rich things which can profoundly move you. It's all very vague, and I do not have the courage or skill to properly express what i felt, and about what... but this is good enough fot my vent rn i guess, rough and crude as it is .

Nowadays, if you admire famous historians, or linguists, etc, you might get told "well, you 2 can learn teh languages... try duo lingo"; which is fine, for people who spend 5 years learning french and german, and think it's an achievment -- or something to brag about; when linguistic, or philosophical, or literary ability has no meaning or substance at all.
 
sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
7,666
I like music and singing. Maybe I would have been a singer in an alternate universe
 
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Darkover

Illuminated
Jul 29, 2021
3,811
i like figuring out how things work i started taking my toys to pieces at age 5 and started programming at age 18 i wanted to be an indie game developer with the end result is creating a game played by millions and making me a millionaire, the only success i had was back in 2014 when i learned how to hack mmo games and made bots for them selling my software made me 10,000£ online in under a year, i feel into a depression mainly because i had no gf to care for me so i turned to smoke weed everyday and that lead to me using headphone to listen to music and that lead me to get a brain injury and tinnitus
 

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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Student
Jul 18, 2023
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oh, that sounds interesting :heart:
i like figuring out how things work i started taking my toys to pieces at age 5 and started programming at age 18 i wanted to be an indie game developer with the end result is creating a game played by millions and making me a millionaire, the only success i had was back in 2014 when i learned how to hack mmo games and made bots for them selling my software made me 10,000£ online in under a ye
 
lnlybnny

lnlybnny

Experienced
Jan 25, 2024
223
in an ideal world i'd probably have had pursued a career in arts, mostly in fashion, but my dreams were killed and i've lost all hope, i'm not made for this world and i wanna get out
 
FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Student
Jul 18, 2023
197
in an ideal world i'd probably have had pursued a career in arts, mostly in fashion, but my dreams were killed and i've lost all hope, i'm not made for this world and i wanna get out
I can relate... :hugs: . But yeah, im not for this world or this society; I did not choose to, and refuse, to participate in this nonesense. Sorry to hear about your dreams... i know how bad that realization is.
 
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lnlybnny

lnlybnny

Experienced
Jan 25, 2024
223
I can relate... :hugs: . But yeah, im not for this world or this society; I did not choose to, and refuse, to participate in this nonesense. Sorry to hear about your dreams... i know how bad that realization is.
i refuse too, i hate that people think i should conform and settle into it, they want to oblige me to it, i can't stand crying everyday thinking how i wish i didn't exist and also being too coward to take the step to end it all, but one day or another i'll have to do it
 
4am

4am

there’s nothing for you (it/its)
Dec 14, 2023
1,664
i never had any interests in terms of pursuing, i always knew that life wasn't for me because i was never interested in it from the jump. but ig if the things were different, i would watch one piece lol
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
283
Getting to pursue your interests at a high level is so much about environment, treatment, and luck. Kids that are born into good families with wealth almost all end up at ivy leagues regardless of their intelligence level and get the best education possible. I think treatment plays a huge role in it too. If you were treated well and surrounded by wealth your whole life wouldn't you think you deserved it? If you got into Stanford wouldn't you think it was because you were smart?

Harvard looks like Hogwarts. The dining hall is nicer than any restaurant I've ever been to. Look at online tours if you want to see it. All of this creates this world of people that think they're that way due to being smart and deserving. I'm not saying rags to riches types don't exist but everything has to line up, conditions have to be right. I think the way we're treated plays a huge role in how we think of our intelligence and potential.
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
144
For example, if they could have been a classical musicians, whatever...

I've been reading a couple days about Georges Dumezil, a famous french philologist and mythologist, etc. Guy apparently could read in over 30 languages; which is very impressive indeed, and very highly commendable. I can understand how that guy could contribute meaningfully to something important -- and, indeed, he did. Apperently, he learned greek, latin and german in his youth... I always wonder how cool that would have been, to be able to understand the massive world of greece and rome, and appreciate the beauty and intricacy of their culture from such an early age; nowadays, classical students in some places don't even have to learn the languages. Maybe I'm just bitter; i'm not much better than monolingual, do not have, and am unlikely to have the prospect of any sort of higher education worth the name(i'm basically borderline retarded.) Even though im my youth that massively interested me, when I started to get into these topics... but quickly i just realized any serious pursuit of this is above my low intelligence, which is basically a prime candidate for eugenics. I realize I'm just too stupid to do anything that truly mattered to me at a truly important level. Oh, sure, everybody can keep to the "low" level, and read some guidebooks or primers on "interesting" subjects, etc.

But basically, being too stupid, and having to spend your life in the dark and heavy trammels of a 9 to 5 job, you don't have the capacity or the time to meaningfully engage with things that might have revealed themselves from behind the oridnary scenes of life, with a light which implied that there's genuinly meaningful and rich things which can profoundly move you. It's all very vague, and I do not have the courage or skill to properly express what i felt, and about what... but this is good enough fot my vent rn i guess, rough and crude as it is .

Nowadays, if you admire famous historians, or linguists, etc, you might get told "well, you 2 can learn teh languages... try duo lingo"; which is fine, for people who spend 5 years learning french and german, and think it's an achievment -- or something to brag about; when linguistic, or philosophical, or literary ability has no meaning or substance at all.
I love music
I would of loved to be a dj, a photographer and dancer who also sings
 
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sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
7,666
Getting to pursue your interests at a high level is so much about environment, treatment, and luck. Kids that are born into good families with wealth almost all end up at ivy leagues regardless of their intelligence level and get the best education possible. I think treatment plays a huge role in it too. If you were treated well and surrounded by wealth your whole life wouldn't you think you deserved it? If you got into Stanford wouldn't you think it was because you were smart?

Harvard looks like Hogwarts. The dining hall is nicer than any restaurant I've ever been to. Look at online tours if you want to see it. All of this creates this world of people that think they're that way due to being smart and deserving. I'm not saying rags to riches types don't exist but everything has to line up, conditions have to be right. I think the way we're treated plays a huge role in how we think of our intelligence and potential.
My sister goes to an Ivy lol
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
2,460
Nope, not me. I never had any interests in anything ever since I was born and I never will. Life just wasn't meant for me
 
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