Anyone else with close ctb dates?

[Shotgunjohn]

Does anyone else have a close ctb date?

Mine is 5 weeks away now and its kind of surreal to think that ill finally be gone.

it brings me peace knowing that things will end soon.

For those of you who have close ctb dates. do you think like this? Or do you not really think about it at all

 

[sadworld]

I don't have a ctb date, I just like to see where life leads me and knowing I can leave anytime is great. A date would just stress me out too much.

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh, so you'll be "leaving" by 2021 already.
I'm planning to CTB next year too but don't know when. I guess once I get my freedom back, (currently a prisoner in my parents' house) I will finally get a plan, method and log out from this game called life.

As for your other question, yes, it brings me peace to think of my longing death. (a lot of anxiety too, though.)

 

[Friend_A]

mine is in 3 weeks...

 

[flower]

4 weeks (providing nothing ruins my plans this time) and it's all i can think about tbh

 

[botanormal]

I don't have a specific date, I just know it'll be sometime early January. I feel the exact same way, I feel like I can get through the next few weeks knowing there's a clear exit right around the corner. Having everything ready makes me feel more at peace, even though the 'real' peace isn't here just yet. Good luck with everything, I hope things turn out the way you want them to.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Want to go asap, before Christmas but don't know if I will be able to unless I can get some help

 

[Mongo]

432 Hours, give or take

 

[NodusTollens]

Preferably this year, though latest end of April.

 

[Lil]

I'm going to ctb until the end of 2020, probably in the last week of the year.
I think about that a lot, I feel peaceful with my decision, but a little afraid of failure.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I cannot yet. I fisrt need to make myself useless. I hope before the end of 2021.

 

[Rue89]

I don't have a date. I want to soon, but living with family gives me very little privacy, especially since my mom works from home. Setting a date is almost impossible, both because of my family, and putting that pressure on myself stresses me out.

Knowing that I have my method all ready to go is comforting.

 

[watereyes]

Around 14 jan. Unfortunately it's not really a choice.

 

[Scooby-Doo]

I don't have a date but it's a comfort to have a small car and barbecues are easy to get hold of even at Christmas.

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

I also plan in January 2021 if my SN arrives.

 

[AnotherNobody]

I don't have a date either, it would stress me out to count the days. I am still in preparation but I think the 2nd of Jan might be a good day to go.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Don't have a date, but at peace with knowing that I can and will when the time is right.

 

[I screwed up]

Mine would be by end of 2020 , but I need help .. I would be gone by tomorrow if I could get my SN

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't have a date set. I'm going to be ready though when I have to exit.

 

[greebo6]

I think its going to be January for me. Feels close now.

 

[justanotherstar]

I'm waiting on my SN. I promised myself I would give my family one last good Christmas so for me it will likely be sometime in January.

 

[angelfeather]

I have no date but believe it will be early 2021. I feel calm and peace knowing I don't have to put up with life for much longer..

 

[Ghostly]

December 29th most likely or January sometime

 

[sage79]

Does anyone else have a close ctb date?

Mine is 5 weeks away now and its kind of surreal to think that ill finally be gone.

it brings me peace knowing that things will end soon.

For those of you who have close ctb dates. do you think like this? Or do you not really think about it at all

I planned mine for this evening, but I'll ctb during the day tomorrow instead. Enjoying one more Saturday night.

 

[rabbithole]

Potentially next week. Sn coming on Tuesday.

 

[chopinkms]

Hopefully within the days surrounding Christmas when I'm on practice home leave from inpatient, but I'm worried of the repercussions if I fail lol

 

[JustABunchOfAtoms]

I will hopefully be gone on boxing day. It depends on if I get my SN

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I'm planning on the end of December or early January 2021. Been trying to see if things got better this year but they haven't. I find life so irritating and struggle to see the point.
I have SN & antiemetics in place. Just hoping I don't fail. I'll be glad to get out of this sick world.

 

[Shotgunjohn]

thank you for all the responses. im glad im not the only one who feels this way. im also sad that we are all at this point, but we will find peace soon if all goes well

 

[constant_grief]

I don't see the need to set a precise date right now. I am suffering from a bunch of chronic health problems, if my symptoms become unacceptably bad then I will do what I have to do.