sannoji

sannoji

dreaming of flying
May 4, 2023
55
i feel like, at the moment, i'm not done yet. so i don't have any active plans. but i just feel that one day i will decide that life has given me all i can get from it. it's a sort of quit while youre ahead mentality i've always had. i don't want a partner or a pet or anything so that there are as few loose ends when i leave as possible but… i just feel like i should be able to live until i feel like it isn't in my best interests any more. my mental illnesses will get worse and unbearable, and i don't know what i'll do then. i just want to be able to die when i'm ready, whenever that is.

when i feel like my end point will be has fluctuated over the past few years. if life proves to truly be worth living then i'll stay, but as i get older at some point things are going to get worse, and some are directly connected to me getting older. but it'll be a while. i just don't get why people aren't allowed to just die when they're ready. because other people don't think they really are or something? i'm just so incredibly tired of having decisions about my life made by other people. this, when i'm ready for it, would be the most logical one for me.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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Prisoners can't leave when we want.
 
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Linda

Linda

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Jul 30, 2020
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i feel like, at the moment, i'm not done yet. so i don't have any active plans. but i just feel that one day i will decide that life has given me all i can get from it. it's a sort of quit while youre ahead mentality i've always had. i don't want a partner or a pet or anything so that there are as few loose ends when i leave as possible but… i just feel like i should be able to live until i feel like it isn't in my best interests any more. my mental illnesses will get worse and unbearable, and i don't know what i'll do then. i just want to be able to die when i'm ready, whenever that is.

when i feel like my end point will be has fluctuated over the past few years. if life proves to truly be worth living then i'll stay, but as i get older at some point things are going to get worse, and some are directly connected to me getting older. but it'll be a while. i just don't get why people aren't allowed to just die when they're ready. because other people don't think they really are or something? i'm just so incredibly tired of having decisions about my life made by other people. this, when i'm ready for it, would be the most logical one for me.
That is precisely what I intend to do, though my circumstances are rather different from yours. If my husband dies before me, there will be no reason to remain. So I probably won't.
 
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Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
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I feel exactly like this. I was suppose to be gone already but I feel like I'm not done yet. I'm trying to find when the right time would be.
 
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unnormal9

unnormal9

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Apr 12, 2023
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Just "finished"? I'm not just finished. I'm done.
 

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