Anyone else want to CTB violently?

[CowsAreCool]

Anyone else want to go out violently? Obviously not violent towards others, but towards yourself? I see everyone obsessing over SN, where they can listen to music and drift away. Why? What if someone finds you, and they save you? Look up a picture of a corpse from SN. I dont want to die looking like chocolate pudding.

I want to go out with more dignity than that. Theres a tall building with an alcove near where I go to school. If I ever decide to check out, I have a plan that would involve a bullet, jumping, and gasoline all in one. Zero percent chance of failure, and probably no pain (bullet, fall, fire, in that order). I'd be getting cremated, so no worries about family seeing an ugly corpse.

Why am I romanticizing violence? I have no clue. But something about a violent, decisive, F U to the world on my way out seems nice. I want to be in a million pieces, not hanging from a ceiling or covered in vomit in my bed. Car crash, jumping, train, etc seems like the way to go. As long as I dont screw up and become a paraplegic.

 

[OldDrummer]

Personally, I'd have consideration for those who have to clean up after you.

 

[CowsAreCool]

Personally, I'd have consideration for those who have to clean up after you.

My buddy is an EMT, has been for years. He has worked the goriest car crashes imaginable. However, he tells me the worst cases he's ever worked were having to cut people down from the ceiling, or dealing with people covered with vomit who OD'd. I'd argue the less like a person you look after you CTB, the less traumatizing it is for the people who have to deal with it.

And obviously, if you let your family find you, you are the worst.

 

[ornitier199]

Yep, since all the peaceful methods are locked behind paywalls.
The bloody mess won't be in a house where there'd be cleanup, instead outside somewhere, obviously.

 

[nopride86]

If pain weren't a factor, absolutely.
I'd throw some slapstick comedy/irony in there and make it a real show. Like slipping on a banana peel and falling on a landmine. Or something from final destination.

 

[downndone2]

I'd jump in front of my worst enemy to take their bullet. I just hope the person pulling the trigger is a good shot to the heart

 

[eternalflame]

Well fire is painful but maybe you will be already dead. I wanted to erase my body or not be found if that counts.

 

[PlushieLover]

I wanted to stab myself to death before I discovered this site and I do sometimes think that I may do it. However I don't think that I have the balls to actually do it so I'll just hang myself.