Anyone else want to ctb because they know that they'll always be a failure?

[UnusedGate]

My social skills suck, I'm ugly and I'm dumb. Always did shit in school. I mean, if I tried really really hard I MIGHT be able to get an ok paying job but I just don't see it happening. I'll probably just end up homeless. What's the point if your a failure in terms of school, romance and also have no friends AND there's there's a good chance you'll never be successful in any of these things.

 

[melonpan]

Yeah, I feel the exact same way. I also just can't really understand how to 'put effort into things' or 'work hard' as many people say will bring you success regardless of your pre-existing skills (or lack thereof). It's as if there's no other choice but to die

I'll try to be an optimist and say I hope we both can find success that pairs with joy, some way or another

 

[Spite]

Yeah... pretty much. I truly feel like life is not for everyone. For some, it's just endless suffering and constantly getting knocked down and stomped all over. I think I'll always be the world's punching bag - a permanent failure, too. I know I'll CTB one day. It's pretty much inevitable at this point, it's only a matter of time...

 

[MyShadow]

My social skills suck, I'm ugly and I'm dumb. Always did shit in school. I mean, if I tried really really hard I MIGHT be able to get an ok paying job but I just don't see it happening. I'll probably just end up homeless.

As someone who has lived life and failed several times, I will add this. There are beautiful moments in life worth living for, and as for your situation, maybe you're being way to hard on yourself. Maybe you have not taken the time to take inventory of the good things about yourself that make you amazing.

I will admit that I am suicidal and suffer from terrible depression. I've had it since childhood and it made much of my life unbearable, but there were moments of joy that made me happy that made the dark days worth it. I too wasn't great in school, and dropped out of college pretty early on. Yet, in spite of that, created a business from the things that I was good at. You don't have to follow the conventional path to become successful. You can forge your own path.

I definitely didn't end up where I wanted to in life. This is why I am on this forum. I don't want this to come across as some asshole lecturing you, but, suicide is final. There are no second chances after you make that choice, so I am hoping to appeal to a part of you that does not give up.

You will be surprised at how much you can accomplish by simply believing in yourself. Once that happens, others will follow you.

 

[UnusedGate]

Yeah... pretty much. I truly feel like life is not for everyone. For some, it's just endless suffering and constantly getting knocked down and stomped all over. I think I'll always be the world's punching bag - a permanent failure, too. I know I'll CTB one day. It's pretty much inevitable at this point, it's only a matter of time...

I just hate how some of us are born to fail. I'm so jealous of those who aren't.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

My social skills suck, I'm ugly and I'm dumb. Always did shit in school. I mean, if I tried really really hard I MIGHT be able to get an ok paying job but I just don't see it happening. I'll probably just end up homeless. What's the point if your a failure in terms of school, romance and also have no friends AND there's there's a good chance you'll never be successful in any of these things.

Life is a lottery. When there is success and happiness there will always also be failure and sadness. Can a person choose how he will look like before he's born ? Can he choose who his parents will be if they'll be a healthy family or a dysfunctional toxic family which will damage him? Can a person decide wether he will become mentally ill or not or isn't it so that many mental illnesses have this genetic factor for which a person can absolutely do nothing 0 for?
Life is unfair

 

[Eternal Disaster]

My social skills suck, I'm ugly and I'm dumb. Always did shit in school. I mean, if I tried really really hard I MIGHT be able to get an ok paying job but I just don't see it happening. I'll probably just end up homeless. What's the point if your a failure in terms of school, romance and also have no friends AND there's there's a good chance you'll never be successful in any of these things.

I have 0 social skills and I am an insignificant, worthless failure. I am not at all fit to live a life.I am destroyed and I will always be a loser. I am failing at each and every aspect of life and probably I have lost everything. I am drowning in my own darkness. Suicide and failure are in my destiny.

I have already given up on my life and future cuz it's all dark and I am saying this all after trying, after trying too hard.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

There are some people that don't believe you can be a failure, and will push that in your face. I've always failed, and when I haven't I've been insanely delusional. I have autism and schizophrenia. The schizophrenia weighs down my cognitive abilities and hinders me. Taking meds doesn't work to enhance these abilities, I just wind up slower and more daft.