Venting Anyone else wanna ctb because of your family?

[lunar02102009]

The main reason i wanna ctb is because of my trashy family , they wont support me jus always blame me , they encourage me to do things irl but despite trying over and over to make irl friends nobody likes me , so most of the time im online , i dunno if its fucked up but i dont have a real life anymore i have maybe a little bit of virtual life left which is slowly being slaughtered, why? Because my parents and family is removing all methods for me to go online . They literally removed the internet and i cant pay for it because guess? I have ocd depression and anexity seriously i dont know why do idiotic people birth children despite not knowing how to parent normally and they dont even deserve children , i dont believe in god or anything ( except the times when my day goes bad and i curse god for it ) but before me my parents tried to have a kid 3 times and all of them died , if i were them i would have taken it as a sign from god that i dont deserve a child because i am gonna be a trashy parent but like seriously why the fuck did they make me suffer this existance

 

[DivineSpark]

Sorry to hear that. For me it is opposite, I keep living for sake of family and friends.

 

[Seered Doom]

For real though, want ctb bc of parental units at home too

 

[lunar02102009]

Sorry to hear that. For me it is opposite, I keep living for sake of family and friends.

My friends dont like me at all and are really mean and greedy so i really dunno what to do

 

[BringMeToLife]

I blame my parents for the life I have and the lack of true parental support and understanding is one of the reasons why I want to ctb. All would have been different if I had different parents.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes mostly my mother sometimes I feel like im a burden to her and her attitude proves it sometimes she tries to avoid us (sister and me) like the plagues even tho we havent done anything.

I just want to be dead i havent done it to not cause grief for my sisters which I love dearly.


Everytime she has something to complian about or is not done right sometimes she has these stupid expectations

For example yesterday we were without power so we cleaned some parts of the house instead then she came hoking at us and then she said : "I expected you guys were dressed to look for food."


We were like girl are you fr ?! Then she just started complaining until she left (cuz she thought we were in a hurry which we weren't we were just taking a showers to take the sweat off. Mostly she spend ignoring us but im used to it at this point.

This is getting to long..anyways yeah