Anyone else suffering from extreme boredom?

[LastNite]

Not even games cure it for me anymore. Theres nothing to do at all. I get irritated so bad when Im bored. Call me weird but I get the urge to kms more when Im bored than when Im sad.
I dont know the way to explain it. Every single day of my life spent doing the same thing over and over again. Not to mention I got the worst attention span ever. I used to sit and read for 20 minutes without losing focus now I cant read more than 2 sentences without losing focus.

I doom scroll on tiktok a lot that explains it but THERES actually nothing at all to do. I feel like life is all about sleeping and working and all Im doing rn is sleeping and waking up just to repeat it the next day. I can go outside thats not a problem but to where? To buy things? whats the fun in that. I dont got friends to hangout with so whats the point in going outside.

 

[Pluto]

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence and for me every second is torture to be conscious, I just want to erase this futile, dreadful existence that is just waiting to die anyway, existence is just always a mistake to me, all I hope for is non-existence, for me ceasing to exist is the only peace from the suffering and torture of existing.