Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
- Mar 11, 2022
“Attachment hunger” is hell. I latch onto people but it just pushes them away. It’s like a waking death.
yes… one of my reasons to ctb is — my favourite person doesn’t love as much as she used to(( (and it’s real, i didn’t make this up, it’s no delusion of mine, so this is painful as hell)“Attachment hunger” is hell. I latch onto people but it just pushes them away. It’s like a waking death.
My texting habit is similarNot exactly the same but borderline personality disorder comes with abandonment issues.
If I don't get a message back in an "appropriate amount of time" (like 2 mins) I go into "they hate me mode" "I said something wrong. I fucked up. They don't love me. They don't care about me. I shouldnt have done that, how could I have been so stupid. I'm better off just kms" just so that they can message 4mins later like everything is cool.
So not an attachment disorder as that strikes me as a before hand thing, while for me it's if I'm already attached im worried about them leaving.
Borderline personality disorder is emotionally exhausting.
How many relationships have you had?No, I generally can’t stand people unless they are right on my level. Sadly I can’t stand my girlfriend, she’s been with me 5 years too long and we have zero in common other than morbid humor and bad movies. Other than that she irritates the shit out of me. But no if I had my choice I’d be alone, I miss being single. Just had affairs, read all day, had my own place and my own rules I was free as the wind. Take my advice: relationships stink
I don’t understand getting attached to people online. People online are just words on a screen.I get attached to people, especially people online.
I don't have a specific diagnosis. But I'm certainly a lonely, undesirable person, so it's somewhat naturally going to happen
The kind of frank, honest, genuine, truthful and non judgemental conversations you can have online to connect with people are simply not possible in real life. I can't go round parading that I'm suicidal in real life or I'll get detained.I don’t understand getting attached to people online. People online are just words on a screen.
I talk to people in person the same way I do online.The kind of frank, honest, genuine, truthful and non judgemental conversations you can have online to connect with people are simply not possible in real life. I can't go round parading that I'm suicidal in real life or I'll get detained.
In fact, I care much less about real life connections for this reason. Online ones are much more valuable.
Not officially diagnosed but I was told I most likely have anxious-avoidant or ambivalent attachment style. It basically comes down to either being desperately lonely but too afraid to get close to people, thus remaining that way or clinging to people for a while than becoming cold and detached, running away from them because you don't even really know what you feel anymore.
Apprntly b.p.d = effctvly a devlpmntl attchmnt - basd disrdrI guess borderline is technically a kind of attachment disorder?
I know for sure I suffer from eternal loneliness, and it is unbearable to feel this way. I tend to then feel connected with people in very fast ways, so in this case I have this attachment. But this interest eventually fades away, so maybe it isn't an attachment disorder since none of these bonds are permanent.