All I want more than anything is to have a healthy, happy, loving relationship with someone who treats me with respect and eventually get married and start a family. It seems like all of my relationships have been with people who are either emotionally or sexually unavailable (sometimes both). I'm going to be 30 in a few years and have never had a real relationship that has lasted more than 6 months, I don't think it's ever going to happen at this point because I'm on the wrong side of 25 and my looks are just going to go downhill from here. I don't think I deserve love at this point tbh. I think I'm really good with kids, I've been a nanny and have younger siblings etc but I'm scared I'd be a bad mother or my genetics are too fucked up to have kids.