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KafkaF
Taking a break from the website.
- Nov 18, 2023
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I've been trying to think a lot about what's holding me back and one thing I feel is it's just how morbid the practicalities are.
I'll take the thing. Then I'll be laying there alone knowing I'm about to die for maybe 10 minutes. Maybe throwing up.
Then my body will lay there just getting cold. Someone will have to find it and then a bunch of people will come get it.
Then I'll have to be put in a coffin and buried underground and my body will slowly decay and fall apart.
Idk, I hate that. It's, for lack of a better word, so morbid and it bothers me a lot. Especially imagining my body as an empty shell.
I wish that when you died your body just instantly disappeared along with you.
Not sure how to get over this.
I'll take the thing. Then I'll be laying there alone knowing I'm about to die for maybe 10 minutes. Maybe throwing up.
Then my body will lay there just getting cold. Someone will have to find it and then a bunch of people will come get it.
Then I'll have to be put in a coffin and buried underground and my body will slowly decay and fall apart.
Idk, I hate that. It's, for lack of a better word, so morbid and it bothers me a lot. Especially imagining my body as an empty shell.
I wish that when you died your body just instantly disappeared along with you.
Not sure how to get over this.