My Mom is dying from cancer and I have no idea what my reaction will be when she dies... She was the only person in the world who truly loved me and cared about me. She was my best friend. I don't know if I will be able to handle her death... I might just kill myself when I hear the news... It might be anytime now... If I will be able to live without her, it won't be longer then a few months or maybe a year at most. She left some money for me and I would like to make the best of it and have some fun before I go. But I know nothing will be the same without her, so I doubt I will be able to enjoy anything. But I want to travel a bit and have some fun, and then I will leave this disgusting and cruel world for good. Maybe I will be reunited with my Mom again and we will be together forever... And if not, at least my suffering will be over forever and I won't feel anything, and won't miss her or feel any pain.