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777cave

Student
Aug 11, 2023
101
I've attempted before, ready to die, but now I don't want to die but can't see any alternatives. I feel like it's inevitable. Anyone relate?
 
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polm

If I was your pet you’d take me to the vet
May 3, 2025
129
Yes, I can relate. I don't want to die but I want suffering to end. Death is the only way out for me
 
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bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I'm going to struggle my very best. I expect to be around for some time, so please bear with mešŸ˜Ž

I can personally guarantee I will CTB at some point though. Simply because old age is not an option.

Being weak, brittle, arthritic, unable to walk, unable to do the things I used to love, unable to travel. What kind of life is that?
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
It's always a cycle of wanting to die and then wanting to live
 
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rs929

Warlock
Dec 18, 2020
785
I feel similar. Sometimes I want to die, sometimes I want to live. I don't know about your particular situation but I think it means that your perspective on suicide is highly emotional, not rational. If your desire of CTB was a logical conclusion, it wouldn't change with time . Maybe we are not ready yet?
 
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hiitsme

Member
Aug 13, 2024
27
for me i want to live sometimes bc i hope for a life that is probably unattainable for me
 
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offbalance

All I want is peace
Dec 16, 2021
330
I can relate yeah. I want to live a happy life but I just don't see how that's possible
 
BRAINWORMS

BRAINWORMS

dust to dust
Jul 20, 2020
161
I want a happy life with the people I love so desperately badly, but I don't see any way for it to possibly happen.
 
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