Venting Anyone else not know how to put their depression into words?

[notrealzel]

i don't know how to explain why I'm depressed or how I actually feel.

Even writing this I'm exactly sure how to explain what I'm trying to say, but I hope that someone else can understand. I've typed and erased and typed and erased about hundreds of words by now because it just doesn't make sense to me or sounds stupid to type out.

Like ???? It's so frustrating because I so badly want to vent but I dont know where to start or what to even talk about. Sigh.

 

[thealteredmind]

well... for example: having depression is feeling, looking, hearing, tasting, smelling and THINKING... in black and white.
people normally do that in colors.

with depression is totally black and white, no colors. like old films.

 

[beetle]

For sure, it's why I struggle so much with therapy. I still struggle with finding where to start, but I've managed to find some ways to vent. I think if you can find a way to express your emotions in a way other than through words/text that could also help (e.g., art, music); being able to understand your depression in a different medium can possibly help you find the words. I hope you can manage to figure things out

 

[notrealzel]

well... for example: having depression is feeling, looking, hearing, tasting, smelling and THINKING... in black and white.
people normally do that in colors.

with depression is totally black and white, no colors. like old films.

For sure, it's why I struggle so much with therapy. I still struggle with finding where to start, but I've managed to find some ways to vent. I think if you can find a way to express your emotions in a way other than through words/text that could also help (e.g., art, music); being able to understand your depression in a different medium can possibly help you find the words. I hope you can manage to figure things out

This is also largely why I dislike therapy cuz I end up just agreeing with whatever the therapist tells me I 'may' be feeling because it's easier that way than using my words. I've tried through art as well but I lose motivation very quickly and find it makes my depression worse so :,) but hopefully I find something one day. Thanks for the advice!

 

[Eudaimonic]

Yes. Idk how to explain it.

 

[UKscotty]

Depression means no joy, wanting to die, finding all existence meaningless, no energy to even get out of bed sometimes.

 

[onbekend]

My depression isn't like complex, It's just something that I can't really describe to others because it probably wouldn't make much sense when I describe it.

 

[mehdone]

Pain. Overwhelming, crushing, physical, mental, spiritual, emotional pain- and the feeling that I have a black hole inside me, consuming my very essence and being.

Hollow. Empty, but so, so full of pain.