Discussion anyone else not give a shit about dying anymore? [discussion/vent]

[happy2die]

I used to be sentimental about death n shit but not I AM SOOO FUCKING HAPPY like I can finally live life without stress like this is the most carefree and happy I've felt in soooo long. (lowk turns into a vent here can you tell I have ADHD?) This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them?? a lot of non suicidal people assume that people "regret" their decisions right before dying man FUCK that I'm feeling so good right now. I don't even want to write sentimental suicide notes to everyone anymore I just wanna write about the reasons why I want this torture to end and be done with it. dont even hold a funeral for me just forget me I AM DONE!!! I don't even know why I feel so free because I only have like 50% of the work I need to do to execute my plan done. this isn't even my first attempt either I've literally attempted so many times but I think this is is the first time I'm 100000% sure that I'm out instead of going back and forth and having some back up plan

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them??

I'm always so incredibly grateful that their suffering is finally over. Life doesn't get better for everyone and knowing that they are now at peace is much more comforting than knowing they're alive and can't escape. I still do feel awful of course, because of what they must have been going through and because I'm reminded of how awful life can be to innocent souls.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

personally still working on it. somehow there are moments where i'm reconsidering ctb, but it's not like i'd want to suffer through the consequences of my own actions any longer. i'm just destroying what's left in my life because i know i might just be gone but idk....could just be SI or that i'm a pussy somehow and not actually ready yet but who knows

 

[happy2die]

personally still working on it. somehow there are moments where i'm reconsidering ctb, but it's not like i'd want to suffer through the consequences of my own actions any longer. i'm just destroying what's left in my life because i know i might just be gone but idk....could just be SI or that i'm a pussy somehow and not actually ready yet but who knows

SI is a serious bitch. I didn't go through so many attempts because I was too scared even when I know that I don't want this life anymore

 

[thislifeisunfair]

I used to be sentimental about death n shit but not I AM SOOO FUCKING HAPPY like I can finally live life without stress like this is the most carefree and happy I've felt in soooo long. (lowk turns into a vent here can you tell I have ADHD?) This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them?? a lot of non suicidal people assume that people "regret" their decisions right before dying man FUCK that I'm feeling so good right now. I don't even want to write sentimental suicide notes to everyone anymore I just wanna write about the reasons why I want this torture to end and be done with it. dont even hold a funeral for me just forget me I AM DONE!!! I don't even know why I feel so free because I only have like 50% of the work I need to do to execute my plan done. this isn't even my first attempt either I've literally attempted so many times but I think this is is the first time I'm 100000% sure that I'm out instead of going back and forth and having some back up plan

I agree with all of this. Before I attempted last time. I felt free and like there weren't any worries in the world. And when you hear that someone went through with their plan and succeeded. I feel happy for them. Because they got a chance to finally escape this hell. Unless they were really young and still could've made something out of their lives. Like my really old friend who was 12 when she committed suicide by hanging. Life sucks, it really does. I hope that you found peace and got free of this world.

 

[happy2die]

I agree with all of this. Before I attempted last time. I felt free and like there weren't any worries in the world. And when you hear that someone went through with their plan and succeeded. I feel happy for them. Because they got a chance to finally escape this hell. Unless they were really young and still could've made something out of their lives. Like my really old friend who was 12 when she committed suicide by hanging. Life sucks, it really does. I hope that you found peace and got free of this world.

I didn't fucking SI got in the way every single fucking time. I just want to leave man why the fuck is it so hard I'm so pissed off. there's nothing in my life to continue living for. i ruined it

 

[thislifeisunfair]

I didn't fucking SI got in the way every single fucking time. I just want to leave man why the fuck is it so hard I'm so pissed off. there's nothing in my life to continue living for. i ruined it

Yep, it's like that. Even if you know that there is no point continuing on. Your body still doesn't want to die. It's how humans are programmed. We're meant to be scared of death. It's how we stay alive. If we weren't, we would be doing stupid shit every day. And people would be dying a lot more because we don't fear death.

 

[DarkJason]

I've been desperately wanting to die for years now. I'll probably pull a Kurt Cobain next month because my life is nothing but sadness and misery. People love to say shit like "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem," but in my case, my problems are anything but temporary, which is why I'm excitedly waiting for the day where I can leave this cruel world and not have to deal with the soul-crushing agony that comes with being a subhuman POS like me.