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hopelessbeing
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- Aug 10, 2022
- 16
This is one of the reasons I want to CTB. I just feel like a massive burden to my family due to my mental health issues and past suicide attempts. I know all I do is worry them and hurt them. I genuinely think they would be better off without me in their lives. I mean I've tried to get better for them, I've tried medications and therapy. If I'm completely honest I don't want to get better anyway. I just want to be gone, to disappear. I wish I could just be gone and forgotten I know it will hurt them and that destroys me but at the same time I don't know how much longer I can keep living like this. I feel stuck. Like I am living an existence I don't want for other people. Anyway I know one day all of this will get the better of me and I hope the attempt works this time. I am just sorry to my family more than they will ever know.