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Lifeaballache

Student
Aug 28, 2022
163
Having a bit of a bad night and I feel angry that what could have been will not happen.

I feel angry that I've never been able to make my way in life when all the people I went to school with are having a great time, having children etc.

I just think out of billions of people why did I have to be the one to fuck shit up.

I just feel hard done by. I need some kind words.

Angry that I'll never have what normal people have, stability, money and a significant other.

Angry that my childhood ambitions never came true - although I did get close.

Angry at so many things. I'm rambling...
 
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Orchidia

Member
Sep 12, 2022
20
I am feeling the same way, i am 25 years old, i am committing suicide for the same reason, i had a great chance of becoming successful but i fucked things up. I wasn't able to use what my parents gave me.
I was really ambitious and had potential.
I was too thinking why i had to be the one, while others seemed to be normal and ended up fine.
I feel a lot of anger towards myself, at the end of the day I wasn't able to take positive decisions
 
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Lifeaballache

Student
Aug 28, 2022
163
I am feeling the same way, i am 25 years old, i am committing suicide for the same reason, i had a great chance of becoming successful but i fucked things up. I wasn't able to use what my parents gave me.
I was really ambitious and had potential.
I was too thinking why i had to be the one, while others seemed to be normal and ended up fine.
I feel a lot of anger towards myself, at the end of the day I wasn't able to take positive decisions
Exactly the same as me. I didn't have a bad start to life. I had so much potential and ambition and then one mistake and Boom...
23 years wasted
This is how I feel. I used to be an actor. My dream was that I would leave this planet remembered. I know that's quite arrogant but no one wants to be forgotten about really.

Now I feel the last 26 years have just been pointless.

Ironically I think I'll be 27 by the time I leave which means I'll be joining the likes of Amy Winehouse and kurt cobain in the club.
 
flightless bird

flightless bird

somewhere over the rainbow
Aug 18, 2022
254
I feel angry that I've never been able to make my way in life when all the people I went to school with are having a great time, having children etc.
Not having children is better, at least you're not condemning anyone to suffering and death. I sincerely respect you for this.
I just think out of billions of people why did I have to be the one to fuck shit up.
You didn't, life did. We learn as we go. Some are lucky, some are not. This is the way life is so don't blame yourself for no reason.
I just feel hard done by. I need some kind words.
You have suffered so you have some war scars and that's real depth. I've known hundreds of normal people in my life, and I would rather take you as a friend.
Angry that I'll never have what normal people have, stability, money and a significant other.

Angry that my childhood ambitions never came true - although I did get close.

Angry at so many things. I'm rambling...
All those things perish, death is the only truth. I have learned this the hard way. Keep this in mind, relax and focus. You are free to do anything you want, just decide, then all it takes is determination.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
Having a bit of a bad night and I feel angry that what could have been will not happen.

I feel angry that I've never been able to make my way in life when all the people I went to school with are having a great time, having children etc.

I just think out of billions of people why did I have to be the one to fuck shit up.

I just feel hard done by. I need some kind words.

Angry that I'll never have what normal people have, stability, money and a significant other.

Angry that my childhood ambitions never came true - although I did get close.

Angry at so many things. I'm rambling...
People having kids in their 20s are way too young. Not even done with school? People lie. Maybe people feel firced but behind the doors they cry hating theur new demanding baby, the husband starts to drink to flee the mess, and some end up beaten. But smiles! Smiles everywhere! Maybe watch the series desperate housewives. The perfect dream is a lie.

Just date to marry then. You're not the only desperate one. But I can't either. I'm freer single though. Enjoy
 
Ruinedbypsy

Ruinedbypsy

Member
Sep 9, 2022
18
19, I was actually doing pretty good as far as taking care of myself until my family fought with me and got me addicted to psych meds. Now I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. Not addicted anymore but still dealing with the consequences of the addiction and will be for the rest of my life. I hope every night is my last. Every time I hear a plane I'm hoping we're getting bombed as long as it takes me and my family out instantly.
 
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catasia

Member
Sep 12, 2022
5
25 here.
I am an engineer and work at the university. Nice boyfriend, family... Sounds great eh? I want to die everyday, hoping to not wake up every morning. I am waiting for a cancer, car accident or whatever that cannot hurt them because of my exit. Maybe one day I ctb but I am so afraid to fail.. I tried years ago and failed, It was horrible.
 
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Lifeaballache

Student
Aug 28, 2022
163
25 here.
I am an engineer and work at the university. Nice boyfriend, family... Sounds great eh? I want to die everyday, hoping to not wake up every morning. I am waiting for a cancer, car accident or whatever that cannot hurt them because of my exit. Maybe one day I ctb but I am so afraid to fail.. I tried years ago and failed, It was horrible.
Why do you want to die though.
 
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catasia

Member
Sep 12, 2022
5
Why do you want to die though.
I feel lonely, I am stupid, worthless and people expect me to do things that I cannot. Life is stressful, suffocating, a lot of pain and injustice, politicians suck... I am tired all day but I cannot sleep at night. I feel that life is going so fast and I cannot follow it (and honesly, I don't want to). I am not sure about the exact thing that made me to this situation, but that's what I feel. There are people here with big problems and probably mines are not strong enough but... I don't know...
 

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