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AhG
La vie est tout sauf un rêve
- Jan 24, 2019
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I'm here because I have a HS sweetheart. We got together when I was a freshman and she was a sophomore. We loved each other like a cheesy Nicholas Sparks book/movie. We moved into together and then things got a little heated after we both got out of HS. It was my fault in the end for our last fight. I swore I would change but school happened and then the thing in school happened. She was also in another state, which made things harder for us. I kind of pushed her away. But we swore to get married and we did, 2 days away from our actual anniversary, 5-27-13x5-25-18. Then I had to be an asshole to her afterwards to the point she gave up on me. I was basically forced into ending our marriage and it worked. She hasn't talked to me in almost 3 months even after I tried to tell her why I did this to us. I'm waiting for the divorce papers, which I honestly don't want because I know I'll lose it and the saddest part is it hasn't even been a year since we got married. I think about her everyday. I'm honestly in love with her but the things I had to do to protect her were for her own good. She saved my life and now she'll be the one ending it, well not really ending it, but fixing it. I have this theory I always told her about. When we die we just start over again. We are reborn and then go through life with the littlest memories we have, that's why we have Déjà Vu, which is my opinion. If I do CTB soon, I would start everything over just to be with her again, all the heart wrenching things just to start over with her again.