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Pure

Pure

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I just realized today that I experience extreme anger right before I fall into deep suicidality.

Anyone else experience something similar or with another emotion?
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
No, it's just hate. 100 percent hate and triggers non-stop. Also some guilt which just turns around into hating myself.
 
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Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

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Jul 4, 2021
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Mine isn't so much anger, it's usually now just hopelessness.
 
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bunnies

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Mar 13, 2020
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i have bpd and definitely get triggered by mood intensity, but that's not always the case. sometimes i am at baseline and trying to sort things out about my life and the logical conclusion (for me) is suicide. it probably sounds weird but yes
 
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Pure

Pure

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Jun 29, 2021
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i have bpd and definitely get triggered by mood intensity, but that's not always the case. sometimes i am at baseline and trying to sort things out about my life and the logical conclusion (for me) is suicide. it probably sounds weird but yes
I get that....I used to think I had bpd because of my chronic and intense suicidality couldn't just be attributed to depression I felt.

But I understand your conclusion. Suicide for me makes the most sense. Living between not wanting to be alive and being too afraid to die is hell in it of itself. Recovery seems out of reach and not even possible for me. Suicide is definitely the easier choice between the two.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
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Yes. Anger, frustration, despair, and being overwhelmed are usually what precedes a strong desire to immediately ctb for me.

When I'm not numb, I'm angry and helpless to do anything about the things that anger me, so I try to be numb.
 
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suisuiforum

Experienced
Jul 4, 2021
239
You know this meme?


Screen Shot 2021 08 01 at 111354 PM


That is what triggers my suicidal ideation
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
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Whenever someone says my ex-girlfriend's name my brain kind of explodes.
 
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UberYeets

UberYeets

Humans are mercenaries by nature, loyal by will.
Apr 7, 2020
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Yes when I'm sober and thinking logically.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Yes, sometimes feeling stressed and overwhelmed can make me more suicidal, I am the type of person who easily gets stressed. Other times it is a hopeless feeling. A lot of the time I do not feel any emotion at all though, I just generally lack the will to live.
 
it's_all_a_game

it's_all_a_game

I remember...death in the afternoon...
Nov 7, 2020
356
I tend to have nostalgia pangs right before I feel intensely suicidal, like when I'm reading a childhood manga or listening to a favourite LP.
 
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CatTheBus5689

Member
Jun 22, 2021
76
I feel really unmotivated and hopeless when I have them. I just remind myself why I made my decision.
 
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frifranlivet

Member
Jun 8, 2021
10
I just realized today that I experience extreme anger right before I fall into deep suicidality.

Anyone else experience something similar or with another emotion?
When I talk to my partner who lives far away.. we met online and we won't meet until next year. Im so afraid I'll lose her. That and whenever I think about what the fuck im going to do with my life makes me want to give up
 
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Pure

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Jun 29, 2021
366
Also, social anxiety and loneliness flairs me up too
 
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filthyrottendirty

Experienced
Feb 20, 2021
222
I just realized today that I experience extreme anger right before I fall into deep suicidality.

Anyone else experience something similar or with another emotion?
It's the same for me, anger at myself
 
OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
I'm really triggered by small challenges that make me give up and experience hopelessness. Example:

>try to learn something
>not getting it

and the suicidal thoughts begin.
 
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