Anyone else have BPD?

[ForgottenAgain]

I have BPD (borderline PD), diagnosed by my psychologist several years ago. It's been more than 15 years since I have therapy with him, ever since my mental health declined.
I hate having this illness, feels like I can't enjoy life and there's no much further help to receive.

 

[randal_bond]

I have BPD (borderline PD), diagnosed by my psychologist several years ago. It's been more than 15 years since I have therapy with him, ever since my mental health declined.
I hate having this illness, feels like I can't enjoy life and there's no much further help to receive.

Your therapist wasn't any help?

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Your therapist wasn't any help?

He was and still is. I'm much better than before when I was hearing voices, self harming, painting with blood...but I always get back to the same state of feeling depressed, lonely and without being able to enjoy life.

 

[Limerance]

Same boat here, I was diagnosed a couple of years ago and so many parts of my life made so much sense after that.

I know how BPD could make you want to CTB, and that's often the case with me as well. Just know everyone here is up for a chat via posts or DMs (if you don't feel like posting).

 

[Lookoutbelow]

I have had BPD since like forever. I really dislike the one aspect of my mood being all over the place. Also, the fear of abandonment stinks also.

I am in a great mood and then in a flash, I might be down or a powder keg of gun powder waiting to go off. Try as I might BPD haunts me all the time.

Also, the abandonment part sometimes leaves me with sky-high anxiety. That is where SaSu comes into play, knowing that I have friends/family here, thank heavens for all of you folks, thank you so much!!!!

Walter

The abandonment part, holy cow! It is crippling! I have BPD and I'm going through a break up of 13 years. Death and anxiety is all there is for me.

 

[whywere]

The abandonment part, holy cow! It is crippling! I have BPD and I'm going through a break up of 13 years. Death and anxiety is all there is for me.

My heart breaks for you, as I all too well know the pain.

Lots of hugs, love, kindness and then knowledge that you are not ever alone.

Walter

 

[randal_bond]

He was and still is. I'm much better than before when I was hearing voices, self harming, painting with blood...but I always get back to the same state of feeling depressed, lonely and without being able to enjoy life.

I'm glad it's helping ))) I didn't realize, though, that BPD can make you hear voices. I had a member of the family with BPD, and they never mentioned hearing voices. Is it typical for pwBPD?

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I'm glad it's helping ))) I didn't realize, though, that BPD can make you hear voices. I had a member of the family with BPD, and they never mentioned hearing voices. Is it typical for pwBPD?

I don't know if everyone gets that as a symptom but I had it for some years, it's part of the package.

 

[wiinterfrost]

i was diagnosed with it? but honestly i was younger (as in a teenager) and also i think some things were mislabeled due to undiagnosed autism. i don't realy identify with that, although reading about it makes me identify with it. i guess i just identify more with being all-round traumatised as fuck (c-ptsd) and disabled due to my panic disorder and autism.

 

[thalasabin]

I was diagnosed with BPD earlier this year. After my diagnosis I looked back on my life and I realized just how much sense it made that I had BPD. The fear of abandonment really affects me, considering that I pushed many of my friends away due to me misbehaving towards them it fuels that fear.
And the uncontrollable emotions man, they are a bitch to deal with I fucking hate it so much.

 

[Toobrokentofix]

Yes. I was diagnosed 24 years ago. Not sure if it was a curse getting the diagnosis or if I am just the curse! But know I feel done with me or it