• UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.

  • Hey Guest,

    Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.

    This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.

    In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].

    Read our statement here:

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1L
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
AUTIST777

AUTIST777

Jumping soon
Apr 29, 2020
50
Me being autistic made me a very easy target and I over-reacted to stimuli very quickly so those cruel fuckers took advantage of it and would make me have meltdowns. Being in a public school as someone with autism has caused me irreversible damage and worsened my OCD and left me with PTSD to the point where I have super vivid dreams very often of my school years and being bullied in the nightmares. It fucking sucks.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Pluto, Message In A Bottle, brokeandbroken and 5 others
freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
School is barbarous. I'm so sorry you went through that. I was bullied at primary (elementary) school first for being a clever introvert then later for being fat. Thankfully my high school hardly had any bullying at all (selective all girls school). Plus I'd lost the weight by then anyway. Bullying is the absolute pits and can scar you for life. I'm sure many of the users of this forum are here because of it.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: thelookingontheway, blacksand, TakeMeBack07 and 4 others
AUTIST777

AUTIST777

Jumping soon
Apr 29, 2020
50
School is barbarous. I'm so sorry you went through that. I was bullied at primary (elementary) school for being fat but thankfully my high school hardly had any bullying at all (selective all girls school). Plus I'd lost the weight by then anyway. Bullying is the absolute pits and can scar you for life. I'm sure many of the users of this forum are here because of it.
I still can't believe that we as a society in the 21st century haven't changed the school system much for the past 200 years, it's abhorrent and inhumane to think of us as cookie-cutter people.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Message In A Bottle, thelookingontheway, blacksand and 3 others
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,031
I think so. It was different people at each school and I was dealing with abuse at home so my mind has been more on that but looking back I've always been bullied/left out
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Message In A Bottle, SexyIncél and AUTIST777
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Was definitely bullied! In fifth grade a really big kid kept screwing with me he got a pencil broken off in his arm. I got to go to a shrink who did nothing, no meds nothing.
Tho Ricky DID stop getting physical! In tenth grade one kid kept running his mouth, the fool hit me I slugged him back. From then on, he ran his mouth but was still annoying as hell. As a teenager, I used to hope that damn school would get nuked into oblivion.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: SexyIncél and AUTIST777
hamvil

hamvil

Wizard
Aug 29, 2022
650
School was sort of ok except primary school which was awful because my mother (which was a teacher) put me in her class to better control me. In the rest of the school I was bullied maybe once or twice, but I had to help other student cheat at the tests, not sure if they would have beaten me otherwise.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: SexyIncél, AUTIST777 and makethepainstop
Sadboyspecimen

Sadboyspecimen

Member
Feb 8, 2022
84
Yes. School was horrible for me. I think I'm probably on the spectrum, but my parents did not believe that autism, or any kind of mental illness that wasn't full on unable to function without direct help mentally handicapped was a real thing. I got both teased at school and at home. And then later on in life at work. Basically every where I go. I used to get teased so bad and would freak out and cry. Eventually I learned to kind of laugh instead and that helped a little, but if the teasing persisted it wouldn't be long before I'd snap. My parents advice was to just get into a fight with the people teasing me. But with the way people targeted me i would have been fighting everyone everyday. And as an adult if I would have taken that advice I would have been in and out of jail who knows how many times for assault bc we all know that the fight starts with a fist thrown, not someone being a little name calling asshole. At least in the eyes of the law anyway.
 
  • Love
Reactions: SexyIncél and AUTIST777
AUTIST777

AUTIST777

Jumping soon
Apr 29, 2020
50
But with the way people targeted me i would have been fighting everyone everyday. And as an adult if I would have taken that advice I would have been in and out of jail who knows how many times for assault bc we all know that the fight starts with a fist thrown, not someone being a little name calling asshole. At least in the eyes of the law anyway.
That's the exact same experience I had, being the laughing stock of the school and being unable to fight the bullies because everyone was so psychopathic that they sided with them. Having so many bullies that it would be impossible to fight them all off.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Sadboyspecimen
thebunny

thebunny

be what they fear.
Aug 19, 2022
227
not throughout the entirety of school, but i did get bullied when i was in 7th grade. the whole class turned against me and they're reasoning for bullying me was that because i was 'too nice' to everyone. kinda dumb and rotten of them, right? after that whole year of being humiliated and left out, i moved abroad and the rest of middle and high school were pretty okay. people were equally nice and no one really messed with me, which is honestly, a nice feeling.

however, now that i'm in college and back in my hometown, i am once again being left out by my current classmates. it's just so weird how people around my area has a knack for bullying and dragging people down. though i'm older now and i don't care as much, being left out still brings me some sort of sadness.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: SexyIncél and AUTIST777
AUTIST777

AUTIST777

Jumping soon
Apr 29, 2020
50
I will never be able to heal these wounds hence the only option is to ctb.

I tried healing my trauma with psychedelics and entheogens, even that didn't work....

The bullies in school would do crazy shit like break my locker, throw my pencil case down the toilet and out the window, just to see me suffer. I was constantly in fear 24/7 while in school. Swiping my legs to make me fall on the concrete when I'm outside.

It got to a point where I would be crying in fear in a toilet cubicle all of lunchtime and be hiding from everyone, cutting myself to soothe the pain at the age of only 13...
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: TakeMeBack07, makethepainstop and SexyIncél
waffels

waffels

he/him
May 3, 2023
19
school is a horrible, miserable place. yes education is important but especially for public schools, the staff needs to get their crap together and start genuinely punishing kids for things they do wrong, not just a small slap on the wrist. i am a trans man and i have constantly gotten mocked and called slurs, to a point where i was trying my best to skip school. i had told many of my teachers and staff about these bullies, yet absolute bull was done about it and the bullying continued. nonstop. it came to a point in middle school where i had to always go all the way across the school to the nurses office to get changed for P.E. most of my teachers were supportive of me but never did anything to get the kids in trouble, like genuine trouble.
 
O

oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
412
Oh yea. Everyday from the beginning to graduation. Post secondary was fine, I guess maturity hits more people at that time. It's definitely a major contributor to my anxiety, depression, social skills lagging behind and preferring to be isolated. First suicide thoughts at age 12. Yea, fun stuff. I skipped the grad dinner and had to be dragged to the convocation. Also never took my photo so I'm not in the year book. My bullies could be dying in agony in front of me and I don't think I would do anything to help. Fuck them.
 
Rabbit-

Rabbit-

🎼 Achilles Come Down
May 5, 2023
63
School was such a goddamn nightmare. Heavy agree about staff doing nothing, too. I was bullied very heavily in elementary school and in the daycares I went to, to the point of my life being legitimately at risk at times, and nothing was really ever done about it beyond making the bullies apologize to me. (Which, of course, did absolutely nothing to help stop the issue.) A few adults even expressed annoyance when I kept complaining, saying I was being a tattletale, that I needed to learn how to deal with it myself, those sorts of things. Some people really shouldn't be in charge of children.

I was bullied in middle school too, but not as horribly, and luckily- And very surprisingly- it didn't follow me to high school. People definitely made fun of and talked about me behind my back, but that was much easier to deal with than the open physical and verbal abuse that I used to get.
 
unsaiddes

unsaiddes

Member
Apr 25, 2023
74
Yes, my trauma is primarily from being bullied at almost every peer-based setting I've ever had to take part in. It started in preschool (seriously, I had to be pulled out because the other 4 year olds were being dicks) and went all the way through fucking college. I had some nightmare roommates who bullied me relentlessly while also pretending to be my friends.

The worst of the bullying was by far in middle school and summer camp, ages 10-14 really. I'm also autistic, but I've always been fat, conventionally ugly and queer as well. Could never make or keep friends, I had weird interests and didn't shut up but I couldn't help myself. Kids would mock me to my face and behind my back, exclude me from everything, embarrass me publicly, threaten to hurt me, the whole nine yards.

My therapist has tried to help me process all the bullying I went through but sometimes you get so fucked up about it you can't be fixed.
 
B

brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,157
Yes I was in middle school definitely pretty severely. In high school a small amount. University not really. In medical school was the worst. There should be nothing more terrifying then those individuals becoming doctors and treating people. Frankly society in general just sucks.

It's been highly suggested I have high functioning autism...
 

Similar threads

eattwinkiesseejesus
Replies
0
Views
146
Suicide Discussion
eattwinkiesseejesus
eattwinkiesseejesus
kkiwii
Replies
2
Views
280
Suicide Discussion
kkiwii
kkiwii
a_carbon_based_life
Replies
1
Views
264
Recovery
ke9
K
hopelessANARCHIST
Replies
2
Views
229
Suicide Discussion
hopelessANARCHIST
hopelessANARCHIST