Anyone else get satisfaction from goodbye threads?

[Csmith8827]

Like...I mean the threads where they take SN and you can see there typing is all messed up and there basically here with us till they pass out/ go unconscious. I personally get so much gratification from reading those threads. They're really exciting and it's nice to know they got out I guess. Maybe it's because it gives me hope that it's achievable and I could perhaps go out in the same way if I chose to. Anyone else feel like this? I talked about it in chat the other day and we came to various conclusions of why I would feel that way. Maybe it's because they finally achieved what I'm trying to?

 

[Forever Sleep]

To be honest- no. I'm really afraid for them. On the one hand- I hope they do get their wish and that they pass peacefully but witnessing them becoming more inchoherent and then disappearing doesn't give me certainty that they passed peacefully. We hardly ever really know that the attempt succeeded. I hope they are at peace but I guess it's just a whole mixture of feelings. I am very much pro choice, so I feel like we have to respect their choice to do it. I can't help but feel sad for the life that brought them to that stage though. I just always have a whole mixture of feelings really.

 

[Zaphkiel]

While we all support the decision of people making those threads.... Those threads make me sad personally.

 

[FuneralCry]

If they succeed they are very fortunate, I envy them. If one manages to succeed in ctb I also feel relieved at how they are now eternally at peace.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Doesn't make me happy or excited.

 

[CasTheFriendlyGhost]

not at all. i find them quite upsetting tbh. aside of myself, i don't really want anyone to die.

a couple days ago, a young trans woman made a goodbye post and i read through it. she announced it was her last day alive and invited the reader to take a look at her profile which she had made public. so i did and learned a good bit about her struggles. 2 hours later she was still online. i considered writing her a pm and ask her how she was doing, but didn't. a couple hours later, when she had already been offline for a while, i did send her a pm just asking if she was still around. never got an answer. yesterday i found her name crossed out. i cried a little.

 

[Anonymoususer1234]

Like...I mean the threads where they take SN and you can see there typing is all messed up and there basically here with us till they pass out/ go unconscious. I personally get so much gratification from reading those threads. They're really exciting and it's nice to know they got out I guess. Maybe it's because it gives me hope that it's achievable and I could perhaps go out in the same way if I chose to. Anyone else feel like this? I talked about it in chat the other day and we came to various conclusions of why I would feel that way. Maybe it's because they finally achieved what I'm trying to?

I mostly find them sad.

 

[Krokodile]

No and I find that viewpoint very strange.

 

[calebzz1]

Honestly, reading the goodbye threads hit different.

These were real people that were suffering a lot of pain and reading it gives an unnerving feeling for sure..it's obviously disturbing that they actually went through with the act itself.

In the end, I hope they are all in heaven right now.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

Those threads make me feel sad. I respect them and the descision they made, to die with dignity and own their own terms. There's nothing satisfactory for me about reading that another person wants to kill themselves because I'd interpretate that as slightly voyeuristic.

 

[Aim]

It's very sad and a bit traumatizing every time there is a goodbye thread. Because it's real people But at the same time, in a very strange oddly way. Afterwards, it kinda normalizes the concept of death a bit more maybe. Idk. It's hard to even put into words.

 

[theRetroHawk]

Like...I mean the threads where they take SN and you can see there typing is all messed up and there basically here with us till they pass out/ go unconscious. I personally get so much gratification from reading those threads. They're really exciting and it's nice to know they got out I guess. Maybe it's because it gives me hope that it's achievable and I could perhaps go out in the same way if I chose to. Anyone else feel like this? I talked about it in chat the other day and we came to various conclusions of why I would feel that way. Maybe it's because they finally achieved what I'm trying to?

Yeah I feel a gratification that they ultimately got their wish, it's not so much that I'm happy they are ctb in the first place but realistically there is no purpose to this life and all they are doing is avoiding the mundane grind of life. Especially when you consider that realistically a small handful of people actually live a self gratified life (and aren't lying to themselves that they are happy or gaslighting themselves into believing they lived a good life). So it's satisfying to see that they got out

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Wistful...and apprehensive for them that someone might come in the middle of it and ruin it for them.

 

[struggles_inc]

Those threads are heartbreaking. When I come across a live one, sometimes I can't help but try to reach out and offer some comfort for the person. I am no way a pro-lifer, but I can't bear to see someone suffer when I can at least try to ease their pain by letting them vent.

I read those old threads sometimes. It doesn't grant me satisfaction. It's very much like looking through photos of my dead father. I am glad those people are not in pain but then I wish things would have been different for them.
There are many good people on SaSu with high empathy and deep emotions. I just wish they would've lived. They deserved the best world can offer. Love, support, fun experiences.
Going through those threads is like… visiting a tomb. Putting flowers on a grave. Letting those people know they did not live and die for nothing and there is someone who still thinks of them.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

No.
I can imagine quite vividly what they are going through as I held a loaded gun against my head before. And I feel distressed

 

[LastBitOfJoy]

I feel happy for them, not because they ctb, because they get the relief from their suffering.

 

[blackwidow]

No.. I find them all tragic.. And so sad.. All alone, reading the last words of a stranger.. I just want to give them all a hug..

 

[Orange Cat]

I find the goodbye threads upsetting. They make me sad and uneasy. They are real people - not just names on a screen. It's very sad to think about how someone was in so much pain that they killed themself. It's also very sad and traumatizing for their families. There isn't anything to be happy about.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Ah damn I forgot to include your name in that message....sorry

Don't worry, we're all human after all.

 

[the old man]

No satisfaction at all from reading them, to get to that point in their life I can only imagine the feeling of despair and suffering they have experienced and then to actually beat SI and follow through is terribly sad imo. Saying that I am happy that they have found the peace they were looking for, what irritates me is seeing the goodbye posts like..tonight's the night then a description of how they are ready to throw themselves of a 50 floor office block and asking if it's going to make a mess when they hit the ground and you see the same person posting a little while later saying something like ..farewell everyone, I have my 10 gallons of petrol/gas I'm going to drink do you think I'll run outta fuel before I die .

 

[bloodystarzklt]

Not at all, it's rlly sad seeing ppl get to this point of their lifes, i just hope they find the peace they were looking for

 

[Abyssal]

No. Post like this make me wonder if I should even do that, but I probably still will anyways to make sure I go through with it.

Is someone going to see my last moments and instead of understanding my pain they will take joy in my suffering? My worst moment will be one of their happier moments? I don't think I want that.

 

[Raindancer]

I cry every single time. It breaks my heart we all suffer to this extent. I always say I wish them many things but mostly peace and there is something so tragic in understanding for some the only possible peace is death at their own hands. I can only imagine how alone some feel as I think I would at that time.

 

[mallows]

No, my heart weeps for the people who find ctb their only exit, but it also feels so full that they're finally free from whatever pain they were experiencing. Whenever I see one I always try to say goodbye, even if I didn't know the user. It's what I'd want.

 

[logi3535]

i feel torn about it all in general, seeing someone ctb does give me hope but it also just makes me sad at the same time, i've been a longtime no-account lurker here and i've seen plenty of people come and go, its tragic to see other people suffer and eventually take their own life but oh well, just one of those things where you don't like to see other people go through that pain but you feel uncaring about yourself in that position

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

For me, they illicit a stomach-turning mixture of envy and sadness.

 

[stoiccactus]

I find them very comforting. It's hard to describe why.

 

[Angel of Spades]

It's heartbreaking and I always get sad when I see people sending out goodbye threads despite me not having had any prior contact with them, but at the same time I'm relieved for them; I'm glad they found what they were looking for.

 

[Abbadab]

I find them deeply sad. If suicide is truly your best option, you should be able to pursue it without secrecy or shame and leave this world surrounded by anyone dear to you. I hope I'll mostly be relieved when my time comes. Still, I think for the vast majority of people, having to die alone and in secret is tragic, even if you're leaving a long and intense pain.

 

[Dot]

Like...I mean the threads where they take SN and you can see there typing is all messed up and there basically here with us till they pass out/ go unconscious. I personally get so much gratification from reading those threads. They're really exciting and it's nice to know they got out I guess. Maybe it's because it gives me hope that it's achievable and I could perhaps go out in the same way if I chose to. Anyone else feel like this? I talked about it in chat the other day and we came to various conclusions of why I would feel that way. Maybe it's because they finally achieved what I'm trying to?

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