Anyone else get more suicidal the longer you haven't gone outside?

[Ambivalent1]

I go out like once a week and it always feels like my mind is imploding by day 6 and I start planning out my final day. Then I go out and my mind normalizes.

 

[Al_stargate]

Why don't you go out? I would love too. Haven't been out in like 2 years.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Why don't you go out? I would love too. Haven't been out in like 2 years.

The longer I stay indoors the more I feel trapped inside. Also, I don't really have anywhere to go

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I don't. I'm equally suicidal regardless

 

[twin size mattress]

Sometimes that does happen to me. However other times going out has no effect. It's not consistent and i have no idea why.

 

[VidFlumina]

Same. Not leaving the house for longer than a few days is oddly stressful. Maybe it's some kind of primordial FOMO? It's weird because nothing ever happens outside anyway.
Plus I also get a headache for some reason.

 

[F@#$]

Every day I wake up makes me more suicidal.

 

[RemainingDubious]

i personally go out as little as possible. When i do go out my anxiety is ridiculously high and makes me feel so uncomfortable it prevents me from wanting to go back outside.

 

[Dliena]

Oh hell yes! That's why I've gone out more ofc I just feel like a caged animal but 10 years of room prison for me will prob do that.

 

[Raven2]

Other than work I tend to avoid going out. I'm a homebody and prefer being at home on my days off but I do find my mind is consumed by ctb thoughts as I'm not keeping busy. Work keeps me busy and I dont think I'd still be here without it.

 

[marysfictionalworld]

i have a walking route by my house that i try to complete at least once a week if i can. it is strange what details outside strike one over the course of years; it used to be the random bits of trash and detritus that'd get me thinking but now it's all the dogs that look at me - something about seeing them recognize me makes me feel the slightest bit less like a ghost