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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,091
I like food, but more so, I go for video games. I grew up with video games and from my experience, I can easily spend countless hours on them and get lost into the game (especially if it's a game that I'm really interested in). I see video games as a cope and an escape from a shitty, harrowing reality. I also try not to let it get in my way of my responsibilities (such as work and house keeping and other IRL tasks) because I need to make a living and do other stuff in order to afford my copes. While I'm not actively thinking about suicide or wanting to die, there is always something in the back of mind, if my quality of life goes to shit, I'd want to be able to check out on my terms.
 
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
MDMA. It made me be able to communicate in such a free flowing and easy way, i just loved to talk on it which wasn't so easy usually. It had me hooked. It made me feel like i was on the same level as people who have natural confidence and the extroverts.
But it led to taking different drugs and a downward spiral.
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
Yes, very much so. In a way, my addiction is what helped me survive this long. My biggest addiction is love. I will destroy myself for it over and over again. It's a beautiful way to self harm in my eyes. The feeling is indescribable. There is nothing like love... It comes to you in different ways. There is no such thing as the same love, each one is unique. I've always been so love hungry due to being neglected in my childhood. It was never enough. Love. In the end love couldn't make me stay, because the pain and suffering is so much greater than the love I have received. I can barely enjoy and feel that addiction anymore. The others would be sleeping pills and binging...
 
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justanotherday

Specialist
Jul 22, 2019
397
Yes. I become addicted to things very easily. I latch onto anything that makes me feel good and won't let go. I stayed away from drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes because of that. I knew I'd abuse them. But then I started drinking this year. I feel ashamed of myself but I became desperate for anything that would numb my pain.
I also stay away from anything illegal. However, I have to be careful with my prescription medication. Sometimes I am tempted to take more than I should. I cannot help it... my depression and anxiety are worse than ever.
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
I can pick up and drop drugs like that, but I get highly addicted to the company of specific people
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
Im addicted to the love feeling. I even talk to myself softly and touch things softly and do that kinda stuff when noone is around. There was one guy I use to go to school with that liked that side of me and I was addicted to doing it because I liked his reaction and how it effected him. I use to be addicted to running, fasting , clothes, makeup anything that makes me feel beautiful
 
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Donk

Donk

Useless since day 1
Jan 3, 2020
1,128
im addicted to vaping. i smoke cigarettes as well but vaping is more convenient.
 
Suicideisnirvana

Suicideisnirvana

Specialist
Aug 4, 2018
312
For me it's worse than that, when i had enough cannabis for instance i wanted to get addicted. Anything but the slow, tiring and asphyxiating passage of time under sobriety will do.

I quit because it costs too much money and i need money to buy N.
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Illuminated
Aug 27, 2018
3,080


Actually 'Addiction' is easily combatted by social interaction with me like if an old friend asks to play video game the day before or my brother or dad asks to go shooting I won´t drink or do drugs because I just need something to entertain me it really doesn´t take much I just need to be occupied.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Shopping, spending money, gambling. Its meant I've accrued tends of thousands of pounds of debt but there we go.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Sex (although it's been a year)
Currently.. food (totally given up)
Dance
 
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nothere123

Member
Apr 22, 2023
8
The BPD favorite person thing is horrible. If i dont hear from him every 30 mins i lose my mind, it really feels like an addiction.
Honestly, same. I feel so dependent on my favourite person and life without them seems meaningless. I can't even fathom it
 

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