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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
Exactly what the title says. I've always had this problem where I abuse anything that makes me feel good. Food, exercise, any drug I could get my hands on, not alcohol surprisingly because I didn't dig the hangovers. I don't even abuse things because they make me happy I just do it because it makes the sadness go away for a little bit.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I have an incredibly addictive personality. I've spent years battling these demons and have barely been able to break free of them. But now I wonder if it was worth breaking away from them in the first place. They were a good cope and as you say they kinda make the sadness go away.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
I have always been able to say no to heavy drugs, but i get addicted to videogames, weed is a strong addiction, and food. OMG food.
 
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BobbyPellitt

BobbyPellitt

Leap of Faith
Sep 4, 2019
83
Yep. Anything to distract me from real life as long as it's easy to get.
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
yea, every single substance or activity that gives me anything other than pain i ended up abusing.

sucks because i know that i'm just escaping from my shitty reality, but there is nothing else to soothe this suffering. and then the horrible whitdrawals or side effects just kick me while i'm down.
 
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BPD_LE

BPD_LE

The Queen of Meme
Aug 11, 2019
1,576
Alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, self harm, food, spending money and even people. Yes I get addicted to people.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
Alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, self harm, food, spending money and even people. Yes I get addicted to people.
The BPD favorite person thing is horrible. If i dont hear from him every 30 mins i lose my mind, it really feels like an addiction.
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
I'm addicted to anime and games. Which is exactly why I don't have the will to live anymore because I could no longer contribute to those mediums.
 
TrailerTrash

TrailerTrash

Just Passing Through
Oct 10, 2019
240
I'll take anything I can get ..... just to numb the pain for awhile.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,298
My spineless ex is addicted to a cult/religion. I'm addicted to creating stuff. I hope they get trapped in a building and burn with every meatbag they flirt with, all of them clinging to one another and screaming as their flesh fuses. Maybe their frantic self-avoidance and shallow thrill-seeking will be over then.
 
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darkerthanblack

Member
Nov 12, 2019
16
I am seriously addicted to porn, I can't sleep if I don't watch at least two hours of porn, sometimes I just watch it without touching myself, it has become a part of me, I would fight for it, also cigarettes a lot of cigarettes, I think everyone is addicted to something that's how human beings cope with their reality, but it takes many forms, the only difference is that some addictions are approved by social norms, some are not.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
My spineless ex is addicted to a cult/religion. I'm addicted to creating stuff. I hope they get trapped in a building and burn with every meatbag they flirt with, all of them clinging to one another and screaming as their flesh fuses. Maybe their frantic self-avoidance and shallow thrill-seeking will be over then.
That's almost as extreme as me, for vindication purposes anyway.

Yep. Realized the idea was to get out of reality. Melatonin is a lot less expensive. A lot of get really hyped and interested in something -> do it non-stop for 2 weeks to 2 months
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,298
That's almost as extreme as me, for vindication purposes anyway.

Yep. Realized the idea was to get out of reality. Melatonin is a lot less expensive. A lot of get really hyped and interested in something -> do it non-stop for 2 weeks to 2 months

Yeah with me, I can go at something for a long while, but then I notice what I was trying to get out of it and stop. They don't know how to stop or create any sort of bridge with reality, a life wasted for 15-16 years. Indeed, a life wasted for 25 years.
 
SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
1,028
I'm just addicted to beating myself up... That's about it. I smoke dope but was never addicted. If it disappeared, I'd be fine.
 
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Numbtopain97

Numbtopain97

deader than dead
Aug 10, 2019
443
I'm addicted to this forum.
 
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burnedCookie

Student
Aug 8, 2019
120
I'm addicted to Codeine. I feel so good when I'm under this shit. It's like nothing matters anymore for some hours, even depression seems to have never existed. But it's so addictive, you have to be extremely strong minded and respect religiously the time between the doses if you want to be able to handle this in the long run. It's been 3 years for me and I'm ok, it's my little reward from time to time, and thanks to that I became a dark net expert.
 
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Jul 31, 2018
6,914
Booze. Spent around thirty years drunk mist of the time. I think I enjoyed myself but I'm not sure I can remember. That episode with Mr Blobby was particularly disturbing. Paying the price now though.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
Yes, yes, and YES! It's how I became a sugar-holic. As a kid, I was beaten bloody every day before, during, and after school. By the time I was eight I was stealing candy because while the sugar was in my mouth, I felt a tiny bit better. By the time I got to college, I was a full-blown addict. No, it's not healthy. But it's FAR more effective at numbing some of the pain than everything else combined the professionals have offered--including pharmaceuticals, behavioral and cognitive therapies, commitments, and high-voltage bilateral ECT. If the professional therapies were accessible and worked, statistically, (1) people would choose those therapies over their own poisons, and (2) suicide rates wouldn't still be climbing.

Mental health: the non-science that fails even to reverse the so-called disease rates it purports to offer effective interventions for.
 
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Woodnote

Woodnote

Goodbye
Oct 23, 2019
277
Yes. I become addicted to things very easily. I latch onto anything that makes me feel good and won't let go. I stayed away from drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes because of that. I knew I'd abuse them. But then I started drinking this year. I feel ashamed of myself but I became desperate for anything that would numb my pain.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
Rum, Roblox and self harming!
In that order too.....
 
Kodama

Kodama

Experienced
Oct 11, 2019
209
The problem is... Almost nothing makes me feel good now
 
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Lethe

Lethe

Fey
Sep 19, 2019
670
Sleeping, chatting on SS and Discord. Nothing super detrimental.
 
Misanthrope

Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
I have got addicted to video games I think. They help me out run awareness of sickness and they have come such a long way now it is easy to be immersed and find enjoyment there. Then suddenly it is 3am. It has though resulted in me buying lots of them, Steam though makes that easy with the constant sales tempting me with magical worlds that have more consistent logic and saifaction within them than this one. Even if it does involve shooting dragons out the sky with spirit arrows. I can't get enough though, probably because I can't stand being aware of my own reality and this is a means to escape it for a while usually for the price of a coffee.
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
I am seriously addicted to porn, I can't sleep if I don't watch at least two hours of porn, sometimes I just watch it without touching myself, it has become a part of me, I would fight for it, also cigarettes a lot of cigarettes, I think everyone is addicted to something that's how human beings cope with their reality, but it takes many forms, the only difference is that some addictions are approved by social norms, some are not.
lmao

I'm very horny as well, but I have self-control. I could waste the rest of my life away with hentai, but that's so dry - I used to do more than just *that*. I had a lot of meaningful activities to attend to online. Reminiscing the colorful past just makes me wanna off myself that much sooner.
 
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falconeyes

Member
Sep 27, 2019
80
Surfing the web, i could spend days on my chair doing this w/o a moment of boredom.
 
CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
Surfing the web, i could spend days on my chair doing this w/o a moment of boredom.
I love surfing the web if there's people to interact and laugh with when we find silly stuff and cringe at them. Man, those were the days..... now, I don't even have those friends anymore. SS is all I have left.

Every day is a chore to go through and watching anime/playing games don't feel fun nor entertaining anymore. I've had a (mostly) great life, and I've wasted it. I could have preserved that life if I had only been more careful and not so fucking stupid. Oh well.... Time to end it soon.......
 
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hobbydevil

hobbydevil

Anxiously biting fingernails.
Sep 8, 2019
60
Yup, I am very obsessive and lose myself completely in whatever has drawn my attention.
Strangely enough, at the moment I feel addicted to talking to my therapist :') she's too nice to me.
 
azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
Exactly what the title says. I've always had this problem where I abuse anything that makes me feel good. Food, exercise, any drug I could get my hands on, not alcohol surprisingly because I didn't dig the hangovers. I don't even abuse things because they make me happy I just do it because it makes the sadness go away for a little bit.
Yessssssssssssssssssss! I indulge myself so much. I'm in the poor house because of my inability to belt tighten, or deny myself comfort or luxury.
 
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