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WhatCouldHaveBeen32
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- Oct 12, 2024
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I've been awake for over 24 hours, and while I can't articulate words that well, everything that I think is so much realer, my emotions and the static in my head is almost gone and everything hits like a train, every thought that i have almost makes me want to cry and I can't even muster to cry normally, it's something out of reach but when I'm like this I'm close to killing myself aswel, I feel like when I'll need to do it, I'll need to be awake for a long time before attempting, it just seems like I can finally have a say , my body can't keep me in check anymore and I can finally feel like I'm something other than chemical reactions in a shitty flesh prison. I don't know why that is but that's just how I am when I'm deprived of sleep, I can finally talk and say what's on my mind , I can finally get really angry and sad, something I can't do otherwise.
Anyone else happens to behave like this? I'd help me somewhat if I knew what it was specifically, maybe some of you do know or don't, maybe we can find out, no clue.
Anyone else happens to behave like this? I'd help me somewhat if I knew what it was specifically, maybe some of you do know or don't, maybe we can find out, no clue.