Anyone else feeling like nothing gives you ANY pleasure and joy anymore?

[_Minsk]

Hi Everyone
i wonder if someone feels this way too

Spoiler: short story

Yesterday, somehow i got reminded about hobbies i had loved back in the days,
that time, life was still mostly fun. Listening to music, on my first cheap headphones,
which i got when i was a kid, was like heaven, especially Vocal Trance tracks:/

Now hobbies, music and stuff people usually do give me only a very small percentage
of joy and pleasure compared to then.. at times i even don't feel any fun feelings
except of pain, which is like, i cant even explain
but its horrible..
thanks for reading

 

[Verklempt]

You're not alone, I've been feeling this way for a while now. I used to love to draw, I drew everyday. But lately I don't have the energy to pick up a pencil to draw. Lately I have just been listening to music and daydream. Nothing gives me pleasure no more.

 

[Grandexit]

No. Everything in the world is just grey. I read the news, there are tremendously terrible things going on, and I know, I really know I should be grateful and happy with life, but Im not. I don't know whats wrong with me. Today I described it as everyone's life is like an algebra problem. Even in the depression was subtracted from my equation, there's nothing else on the page that's worth pushing on for.

 

[Quarky00]

I think many here share the feeling of anhedonia. Nothing brings joy. For others it is [also] meaning, nothing has meaning..

I was just packing stuff from storage, memorabilia from the past. Crazy shit. Old CDs (useless), grand-grandmother neckless, old cell phone (circa 2004), old rangefinder (film), my yearbook, raves I went to, etc; anyway - a lot !! These are basically significant periods or memories in my life.

Felt nothing... :)

 

[S1mpleme]

Yes.

 

[Pan]

Pleasure? Joy? What are those things?

 

[Green Destiny]

Haven't felt real pleasure or joy for a very long time.

 

[mathieu]

Yes, I feel the same and it makes passing time really hard.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Yup. I had many hobbies such as photography, traveling, videogames, and movies. Now they do not bring me joy anymore. They simply feel like a time waster.

 

[Shivani]

Yes I lost interest in everything,

 

[GoingSoonish]

Yes, there is even a diagnosis for this that is called "anhedonia".

 

[justanotherday]

I no longer find pleasure in anything either.

 

[Jean4]

No. This forum gives me pleasure and seeing all my friends here. Actually, this forum actually gives me something to look forward to. ;)

 

[justanotherday]

I am grateful for this forum too.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Yep. Interestingly the thing that really put me here was getting dumped by my girlfriend who is in fact from Minsk. It really was a death sentence. She was my last Hail Mary chance at happiness and she betrayed me. Betrayed my trust. Betrayed the hopes and dreams we had created together. The tens of thousands of dollars I spent on "saving "her from the misery of her childhood and upbringing and current Isolation she was experiencing in Paris.
I guess I was naïve. When we were together she was always terrified that it wasn't going to work out that I was going to abandon her. But I told her that we were not in a Russian movie. That we were in an American movie an American movies have happy endings and I was going to make sure that our story was going to have a happy ending no matter what. But she made sure that the movie was a Russia movie at least for me.
And so here I am. I'm only surviving long enough to put together a plan for CTB. Which is actually turned out to be much more of a pain in the ass then I realized. Doesn't help that I'm entirely un motivated. And of course it's hard to get motivated to Actually CTB. It's not like taking a vacation to a beautiful island or going out for a sushi meal or seeing a really fun movie.
There's nothing at all pleasurable about CTB. So instead I spend day after day in my pajamas on my couch killing time until I get my shit together and actually move forward. But dreaming of CTB is easier than actually dealing with any real life problems.
It's a big fuck you to the world which is telling me that hey get your shit together and… Figure out the rest of your life… meet somebody new! Figure out how you're going to generate some income! Oh yeah how about fuck you! That's my response. But of course I'm really just fucking myself. But maybe if I fucked myself up enough I'll finally get my shit together and CTB. Really constructive huh? But yes, not much pleasure in things.
If you're stuck in Minsk I can imagine there's not much pleasure back there either. From what my ex girlfriend said it sounded really miserable. A Russian movie indeed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I understand, I just do things to pass the time, I do not enjoy anything. My life is so depressing and empty it is like I have already died. There is no reason for me to stay. I hope to sleep and never wake again.