Anyone else feel like they’re being forced to walk the plank?

[Weebster]

I'd prefer to live, but I have lots of problems that doctors haven't been able to solve.

 

[Darkover]

no i am being kept alive here against my wish and being forced to live out my misery, i don't think human existence will ever be worth living in this place.
one thing for sure so long as i am alive here i'll never be happy

 

[Weebster]

no i am being kept alive here against my wish and being forced to live out my misery, i don't think human existence will ever be worth living in this place.
one thing for sure so long as i am alive here i'll never be happy

Who exactly is forcing you to live?

 

[Darkover]

Who exactly is forcing you to live?

thats good question maybe it's just evolution that has me enslaved in this awful shit to live out my misery without a off switch, survival instinct or just a lack of adequate way to leave, or maybe the law says i have no right to die at a time of my choosing then you get locked up in hospital for even trying to kill your self

 

[Belljar]

I feel forced by my life which has become very difficult and sad.

 

[GentleJerk]

Yes, good analogy. Also, <3 Yu Yu Hakusho

 

[jimmy7754]

I'm really stupid

 

[CandyCane]

I'd prefer to live, but I have lots of problems that doctors haven't been able to solve.

Yes I just made a post about this very thing. I'm sorry. It's horrific and alienating.

 

[EraseRewind]

I think I've made myself walk the plank over many years, I've been really wondering recently if I need this pain to survive and that's why I carry on. It feels as though my plank never ends or keeps getting longer.

I wish everyone on hear peace of mind and a chance at the live they really deserve, I wish I had the magic wand to heal everyone.

 

[Weebster]

Yes, good analogy. Also, <3 Yu Yu Hakusho

I'm rewatching it. I wish I could be a kid again. Late 90s tv was the best. The last time I was happy.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, in my case I do want to die, I want nothing to do with life at all, all I want is to sleep for all eternity. There is nothing that would ever make me want to live. In my case, I feel as though I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult, I lack a peaceful and reliable way to exit this world and there is the fear of failure. It is all so depressing. More than anything I wish that it was easier to leave. I am sorry that things are so hopeless. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[brnggundottxt]

Everything I've been building towards has been totally demolished with the help of corrupt drug smugglers, money launders, with the complete cooperation by my friends and family. I wanted to actually do something great with this life. Now it has been destroyed by shallow dunces. What's left of my life is the same stupid shit they live for. A nicer car to show off? a bigger house to rot away in with people who act like strangers? A drink? a weekend warrior party with fake friends?
None of these vapid things would motivate me to get up in the morning. All I have to look forward to is the pretty routine life that everyone in this shithole lives. A life of drug and alcohol abuse. vapid materialism. a futile rat race. All that will be washed away, brutally snuffed out with the passage of time.

 

[jimmy7754]

Everything I've been building towards has been totally demolished with the help of corrupt drug smugglers, money launders, with the complete cooperation by my friends and family. I wanted to actually do something great with this life. Now it has been destroyed by shallow dunces. What's left of my life is the same stupid shit they live for. A nicer car to show off? a bigger house to rot away in with people who act like strangers? A drink? a weekend warrior party with fake friends?
None of these vapid things would motivate me to get up in the morning. All I have to look forward to is the pretty routine life that everyone in this shithole lives. A life of drug and alcohol abuse. vapid materialism. a futile rat race. All that will be washed away, brutally snuffed out with the passage of time.

How come I'm still alive?

 

[HellWorld]

Yes, I feel exactly like this!!

 

[Weebster]

No, in my case I do want to die, I want nothing to do with life at all, all I want is to sleep for all eternity. There is nothing that would ever make me want to live. In my case, I feel as though I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult, I lack a peaceful and reliable way to exit this world and there is the fear of failure. It is all so depressing. More than anything I wish that it was easier to leave. I am sorry that things are so hopeless. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Do you happen to be older than 30? Your perspective comes across as someone who's done most things and is now done with it all. I wish I was at that point.

Everything I've been building towards has been totally demolished with the help of corrupt drug smugglers, money launders, with the complete cooperation by my friends and family. I wanted to actually do something great with this life. Now it has been destroyed by shallow dunces. What's left of my life is the same stupid shit they live for. A nicer car to show off? a bigger house to rot away in with people who act like strangers? A drink? a weekend warrior party with fake friends?
None of these vapid things would motivate me to get up in the morning. All I have to look forward to is the pretty routine life that everyone in this shithole lives. A life of drug and alcohol abuse. vapid materialism. a futile rat race. All that will be washed away, brutally snuffed out with the passage of time.

What was your dream life that was sabotaged?

 

[Seafoam]

Sorry you've been cornered like this :( . I know I technically have options but it's still my choice to ctb.

 

[Weebster]

Sorry you've been cornered like this :( . I know I technically have options but it's still my choice to ctb.

Choice is an illusion. The winding, lofty road we walk through life is narrow and death lies below.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

My brain is becoming infatuated with not existing and I'm holding its metaphorical hand while we calmly walk along the plank together.

 

[foggy]

I pretty much feel like that. My pain can't be fixed. I'm suffering. I feel like my physical (and mental!) issues and traumas are forcing me to not exist.

 

[Weebster]

My brain is becoming infatuated with not existing and I'm holding its metaphorical hand while we calmly walk along the plank together.

Then who's holding the sword to your back?

I pretty much feel like that. My pain can't be fixed. I'm suffering. I feel like my physical (and mental!) issues and traumas are forcing me to not exist.

I feel that my body is relaying a message through the emergence of new health problems. It's begging for death.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Then who's holding the sword to your back?

Anxiety, depression, grief, hatred for any form of pain (even mild), the uncertainty of agony as a possibility with kidney stones or some bullshit etc. I could go on.

How about you?

 

[Weebster]

Anxiety, depression, grief, hatred for any form of pain (even mild), the uncertainty of agony as a possibility with kidney stones or some bullshit etc. I could go on.

How about you?

Childhood trauma would be the big baddie.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Childhood trauma would be the big baddie.

I think everyone doesn't escape childhood with trauma, but it is on a complex sliding scale. I have a lot of mild traumas, but I was never raped or beaten. Otherwise I'd be even more fked up.

 

[Lost Magic]

lol, I feel like I have been forced to walk the plank my entire life. What kind of ungodly evil builds planks this long
Bloody Pirates!

 

[FuneralCry]

Do you happen to be older than 30? Your perspective comes across as someone who's done most things and is now done with it all. I wish I was at that point.

No, I am 21, but I am very tired of living. I have never wanted to be alive and I am not meant for this world. I have not done a lot in my life, I just exist. Time passes too slowly. I do feel very done with life, I see no point to me being here, I just want it to be over.

 

[ikadasui]

Oh absolutely! Soon I'll have to move out again which already sucks ass, after that I'll need more money since my rent won't be 500 bucks anymore which frankly I'm not even willing to consider working more than I already am, health continues to deterioriate and I spend most days in physical pain alongside mental trouble, eventually I know all my friends will be gone and moved on with life and I'll be alone. Not a whole lot of good things ahead for me