starshotplagues

starshotplagues

Member
Dec 11, 2019
16
I wasn't meant to live in this world and there are no plans for me other than my cowardly end. i guess some of us are worthless and have no purpose in life.
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
This is literally what I'm wondering as well: is everyone supposed to live? How come that people get depressed and why are we not able to find our happiness and purpose to live?
SO MANY QUESTIONS
 
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c824767

Specialist
Sep 2, 2019
358
they f**cked up the world for the average person. They had a chance in the 40s. After many bad bad centuries of ridiculous poverty for your average human. Jesus arguably lived a life of poverty. They had a chance in the 40s to insist that the rich share so that the poor can have a modicum of dignity. The rich said, if you introduce free markets there will be enough "Trickle down effect" to take care of everyone. Famous Fake News. I have never heard worse bullshit in my life.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
Rather like that world is not meant for me...
I maybe could be happy in a better world that didn't hurt me so much.
 
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c824767

Specialist
Sep 2, 2019
358
Rather like that world is not meant for me...
I maybe could be happy in a better world that didn't hurt me so much.
realistically speaking, this world is the ABSOLUTE SH*ts for women
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I feel like I wasn't meant for this world. Not only am I incompetent when it comes to many things, but I also have bipolar, anxiety and BPD
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I never felt right here since I was a child.
 
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BPDbitch

BPDbitch

Experienced
Nov 10, 2019
248
Yeah. I feel like it's me and them, no matter what situation I'm in and with who.
 
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Rushon

Rushon

Member
Dec 12, 2019
51
I feel like that also. I have problems with anxiety and OCD. You should see the face of the new woman you are starting to date when you freak out being in a crowded mall, etc. The door would not even come close to hitting them in the ass.
 
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cherub

cherub

Fvcking Loser
Jan 27, 2019
147
100% :ehh: I'm socially inept IRL and have always been 'offbeat', for lack of a better term.
 
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Flume

Flume

Villain
Oct 28, 2019
300
Less I'm not meant to be here. More there's no space for a person like me to live... so I'm just in the outskirts daydreaming for better days.
 
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Asta

Asta

Specialist
Jun 7, 2019
318
When I was 9 or 10, I remember being outside, looking up at the sky and saying "I don't want to be here!" "I don't want to be here!"
 
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Ark

Arcanist
Oct 18, 2019
412
More like, not meant for this life. No one should have to suffer every single day.
 
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NotMeant2B

Member
Sep 26, 2019
89
Oh, hey! Look at my username!
 
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crea_the_hopeless

crea_the_hopeless

Ugly queen
Feb 26, 2019
95
I was just thinking this today. I'm so weak. I don't compare to anyone my age around me. I never have. I've always been weak and cowardly. I honestly don't see a future for me. I just don't think that I am capable. I legit fuck up everything.
 
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Pepper

Member
May 22, 2019
55
Yes, definitely don't feel like I was meant for this world. My BPD makes me feel that way, and my brain is wired differently than anybody else's. I've only been able to find one other person who seems to have the same brain wiring as me.
 
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notjustyetagain

notjustyetagain

Oct 28, 2019
169
yeah. i never really got involved with my life. i don't understand anyone or anything. the world is crazy, i'm crazy, or both. things just happen, more bad than good. i'm on autopilot 24/7. i don't think before i act. i can't, even when i'm not dissociating. i can't focus on anything anymore. i just chew over my shitty past and shittier future, fomenting my shame and guilt and regret, knowing there's no way to fix anything and slowly winding down. i don't even blame myself anymore -- i don't blame anyone or anything. everything is chaos. nothing -- and only nothing -- makes sense.
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
Yeah, for sure. I'm just not a good fit for life.
 
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sueoffside

sueoffside

forget dbt and cbt i wanna ctb
Dec 11, 2019
47
I believe I was born to be a fond memory for some people and if I stay much longer I'm gonna ruin it. Should have died at 18, nothing better came after it
 
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Reyki6667

Student
Oct 11, 2019
177
Well That would explain why my body screamed to myself that it wanted to die since 11, why i was born in a family of narcissistic radicals psychopaths, why the environment i was in was shitty as fuck, why my body is fucked up, why my depression/dysthymia are incurable, and why i was trapped alone in that insane that toxic and nocive family nest without being able to run away since my illness constantly bordered disability since 19...
Ya, seems like " god" fucked up so badly in summoning me here that he is taking great lengths just to make sure it's enough to push me through the edge while making sure i ll end my life by myself '.
ahaha funny isnt it?
 
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Meant2Die

Meant2Die

Specialist
Nov 8, 2019
307
Yea def. I've always felt too delicate and sensitive, easily taking on emotions of others and always feeling deep empathy for others. Frequently percevied their bad moods as if it was my fault, esp as a child, constantly questioning myself, and couldn't feel comfortable until I made it right somehow. Had a bend-over-backwards complex for people even if they were assholes. Easily taken advantage of. Being around people in general drains my energy, and I always felt I would need to be alone to recharge. I'm too naive and too innocent in some ways as well. Always pretty cowardly, but good about hiding it. LOTS OF ANXIETY.
 
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Time

Time

Looking to leave.
Nov 10, 2019
264
Absolutely. I can identify with just about everything everyone else posted...
I was just thinking this today. I'm so weak. I don't compare to anyone my age around me. I never have. I've always been weak and cowardly. I honestly don't see a future for me. I just don't think that I am capable. I legit fuck up everything.
Yea def. I've always felt too delicate and sensitive, easily taking on emotions of others and always feeling deep empathy for others. Frequently percevied their bad moods as if it was my fault, esp as a child, constantly questioning myself, and couldn't feel comfortable until I made it right somehow. Had a bend-over-backwards complex for people even if they were assholes. Easily taken advantage of. Being around people in general drains my energy, and I always felt I would need to be alone to recharge. I'm too naive and too innocent in some ways as well. Always pretty cowardly, but good about hiding it. LOTS OF ANXIETY.
But these two especially... :aw:
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
When I was a child I was way too sensitive, I'd cry everytime someone said something mean. The years of abuse and pressure to succeed absolutely broke me. However, I know others who were bullied and had it worse in general but it didn't leave consenquences for them afterwards. While everyone else grew stronger from bad experiences, I grew even weaker. Most of my grade school days I'd spend the recess staring out of a window wishing I were somewhere else. I am wired differently from everyone else.This all makes much more sense when I remember I was suppossed to die as a newborn. I'm here on an accident. The world doesn't need me, I don't need it either.
 
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charlottewilts

charlottewilts

read Dostoyevsky
Jun 15, 2019
494
When I was a child I was way too sensitive, I'd cry everytime someone said something mean. The years of abuse and pressure to succeed absolutely broke me. However, I know others who were bullied and had it worse in general but it didn't leave consenquences for them afterwards. While everyone else grew stronger from bad experiences, I grew even weaker. Most of my grade school days I'd spend the recess staring out of a window wishing I were somewhere else. I am wired differently from everyone else.This all makes much more sense when I remember I was suppossed to die as a newborn. I'm here on an accident. The world doesn't need me, I don't need it either.
oh Christ your post hits right home. i was supposed to die as a newborn too; hypoxia. i wish, i wish, i wish i could've just died when i was born prematurely... i was a very sensitive child in the same manner that you described and my mother would always berate me for getting upset for it rather than "taking it as an opportunity to grow stronger". you could've plucked those words from my diary, i swear.

i'm sorry you're feeling this way. my heart goes out to you, TearyEyedQueen :heart:
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
322
it's more that I feel like I am here as some sort of punishment. No matter how much I really try to change my life, to always act kind, to be a good person, to work harder....etc it really is as though some sort of 'fate' tries to get the better of me, that anything 'good' that happens turns out to be a cruel illusion and eventually things go back to being bad again
 
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thepolarbear

thepolarbear

'til we die
Dec 7, 2019
58
it's more that I feel like I am here as some sort of punishment. No matter how much I really try to change my life, to always act kind, to be a good person, to work harder....etc it really is as though some sort of 'fate' tries to get the better of me, that anything 'good' that happens turns out to be a cruel illusion and eventually things go back to being bad again

I know that feel, bro...
 
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tuto170

Student
Jul 1, 2019
114
My father wanted an abortion of me and my mother was carrying under a lot of stress and severely malnourished. When i was born i had digestive tract dysfunction, but i somehow was saved. There were many signs that I should have not been born and schizophrenia is just a cherry on top.
 
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PetiteAngel

PetiteAngel

Member
Dec 12, 2019
60
I can identify with most of these posts. My older sister died as an infant. I was always told that she was too beautiful to live and how I was a mistake. my mum said she tried numerous ways to abort me, ( it was illegal in the 60s) even falling down the stairs. Ive never felt that I fit in or that I should be here.

I hate what this world has become. People are greedy, unempathic children and animals tortured and killed. Murder in the name of religion, I could go on...
Every day is a struggle and im losing my will. I pray every night that I never wake up, but hey here I am

My time is coming soon..im ready ..I just need some help.
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Absolutely. I think that life's a game and I don't understand the rules, in a very literal sense, I know that I'm doing something wrong, but not exactly what. I am and will always be the odd man out. I happen to know a couple of people who are in a similar situation and had it not been for them I would't be sitting her and typing this.
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
453
Yes I feel the exact same way. I feel like I was a mistake to be here. I am just not made for this world and I hate the fact that I am meant to be grateful for being alive but I never asked for it.
 
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