Like depressed every second awake. Depression and feeling sad is like the default state. From the moment you wake up until bed time you feel in an extremely low mood, and it doesn't really fluctuate or get better, you're just trapped in misery and sadness
I don't remember the last time i didn't feel depressed for even a brief moment. It is just gloomy and dark every day
I think it's not always irrational or a sign of mental illness (although sometimes it may be). I think the reason why many people fare so "well" is because they often have a lot on their hands (busy with relationships, work, hobbies, drinking etc.) and even though they may experience some discomforts and even serious suffering, they do not fall into despair because there is enough in their lives to distract them and they may have a belief that could justify their hardship
If you suffer (physically or psychologically, as a result of illness or rational thinking) and you believe that this suffering is meaningless, then why shouldn't you feel depressed?
It follows then that the best cure is to believe in some kind of meaning or to use powerful means of distraction
Hoping you'll get better!
