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Whenever my family feels like I'm doing bad or thinking about suicide, they'd start saying stuff like "we can't live without you" and "we love you so much please think of us" and they make me feel like I'm selfish for thinking about suicide yet they always put themselves first.
Does anyone else relate to this?
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Yes
 
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kenz00s

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May 16, 2025
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Whenever my family feels like I'm doing bad or thinking about suicide, they'd start saying stuff like "we can't live without you" and "we love you so much please think of us" and they make me feel like I'm selfish for thinking about suicide yet they always put themselves first.
Does anyone else relate to this?
this is so real and extremely selfish, my mother always uses this against me and tells me that if I ever go I will ruin her life and all that. And I once told her that this was super selfish and she said that she was trying to save my life, I mean I get her point but these techniques of guilt tripping are the worst thing you can use against someone who cares but is in deep pain.
 
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this is so real and extremely selfish, my mother always uses this against me and tells me that if I ever go I will ruin her life and all that. And I once told her that this was super selfish and she said that she was trying to save my life, I mean I get her point but these techniques of guilt tripping are the worst thing you can use against someone who cares but is in deep pain.
I feel you so much, they act like they care once they feel like it will affect them but they don't give a fuck about us. My mom literally put me in a fucking psych ward for months and my family always say bad things about the friends I make online
Mind you I have no irl friends
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

Who even am I?
Apr 22, 2025
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"I didn't give birth to you just for you to give up and die."

"We put so much into raising you."

"Think about your sister."



Hmm. I don't know. I really can't tell. /s
 
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"I didn't give birth to you just for you to give up and die."

"We put so much into raising you."

"Think about your sister."



Hmm. I don't know. I really can't tell. /s
Omg same exact thing. Somehow they all start crying and saying this stupid shit when they clearly only care about us if we are fitting their stupid labels
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

So where's the bus stop?
May 17, 2024
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Not sure if I've been gaslit, but I have had a friend say to me, "That's a stupid and pathetic way of thinking." And he would dismiss my suicidal ideation.
 
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Blanc

Blanc

nothingness drop
Jun 12, 2025
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Whenever my family feels like I'm doing bad or thinking about suicide, they'd start saying stuff like "we can't live without you" and "we love you so much please think of us" and they make me feel like I'm selfish for thinking about suicide yet they always put themselves first.
Does anyone else relate to this?
That's emotional blackmail. The favorite guilt weapon of intellectually lazy and emotionally coward people.
Instead of taking time to get to know you and accept your state of mind, and just saying that they don't know what to say or do, they would rather put another heavy burden on you and get rid of the problem by not acknowledging it.
Basic denial. Who knows, it could make them think about their own emptiness and mortality... people don't like that usually.
I'm sorry you're not seen by the very people that should help you.
 
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Not sure if I've been gaslit, but I have had a friend say to me, "That's a stupid and pathetic way of thinking." And he would dismiss my suicidal ideation.
When I was in the psych ward, the therapist basically said to me, "if I had to pick the stupidest person (the person with the stupidest ideas) in this room, it would be you" and that sentence is still stuck in my head. People sometimes say things and think nothing of it but it hurts people much more than they think
That's emotional blackmail. The favorite guilt weapon of intellectually lazy and emotionally coward people.
Instead of taking time to get to know you and accept your state of mind, and just saying that they don't know what to say or do, they would rather put another heavy burden on you and get rid of the problem by not acknowledging it.
Basic denial. Who knows, it could make them think about their own emptiness and mortality... people don't like that usually.
I'm sorry you're not seen by the very people that should help you.
It's ok, maybe my suicide will make them rethink how they treat others
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

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Oct 12, 2020
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Yes ! I personally combat it by tormenting them as much as I can at any given opportunity.
 
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Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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I deal with this all the time. My family is the same way. They know I suffer unbearably every day, but they still don't want to hear anything about my desire to find peace
 
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Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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How's life in Russia man?
Bro, it's disgusting here in every sense of the word. Homophobia at the state level. The authorities don't care about their citizens, everything is not for the people 😣
 
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Bro, it's disgusting here in every sense of the word. Homophobia at the state level. The authorities don't care about their citizens, everything is not for the people 😣
A dictatorship in the center of Europe + homophobia is going to drive a lot of people insane.
 
Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
294
A dictatorship in the center of Europe + homophobia is going to drive a lot of people insane.
This world has gone crazy, it has no future. There is too much anger in people, even now it is scary to watch the news
 
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This world has gone crazy, it has no future. There is too much anger in people, even now it is scary to watch the news
It is scary. Our country is also about to be involved in the war that's happening in the middle east. There is no future in this world indeeed
 
Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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It is scary. Our country is also about to be involved in the war that's happening in the middle east. There is no future in this world indeeed
Yes, the reality of today's life is very scary. I saw the news about the Middle East this morning. Wars will last forever. Harsh dictators and politicians will not rest until they destroy the whole world in a nuclear war
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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Yes, the reality of today's life is very scary. I saw the news about the Middle East this morning. Wars will last forever. Harsh dictators and politicians will not rest until they destroy the whole world in a nuclear war
Yea agreed, it's just a big fucking pissing match between all these countries trying to flex there so called "power"
 
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Whenever my family feels like I'm doing bad or thinking about suicide, they'd start saying stuff like "we can't live without you" and "we love you so much please think of us" and they make me feel like I'm selfish for thinking about suicide yet they always put themselves first.
Does anyone else relate to this?
I notice that when suicidal ideation is shared, people either look at you like a failure or a charity case. The humanity of the person behind the suicidal thoughts and their struggles is often omitted. There is always a reason why someone would want to CTB, but people seem to forget the immense amount of pain a person needs to be in to reach that point in their lives.
 
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I notice that when suicidal ideation is shared, people either look at you like a failure or a charity case. The humanity of the person behind the suicidal thoughts and their struggles is often omitted. There is always a reason why someone would want to CTB, but people seem to forget the immense amount of pain a person needs to be in to reach that point in their lives.
That's why I stopped sharing.
 
starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
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Everyone is gaslighted into staying alive. Thats why its best to keep your suicidal tendencies to yourself if you don't want to hear that bullshit.
 
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tsykoais

tsykoais

i can't drown my demons they know how to swim
Apr 9, 2023
126
yes, its like everybody wants to be a hero lol
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,981
Yes, not just by family (in my adolescence and even early adulthood) but society as well, especially seeing all the anti-CTB, pro-life propaganda spewed about. Sometimes even people who may (incorrectly) believe that I may be thinking of such become really inquisitive towards my motives and intentions, which feels rather invasive (it's none of their business). Ironically, the same people who are busybodies have no interest in advancing my interests and goals, yet have no issue trying to push me to be 'positive' and gaslight me (which ironically is a subtle way of pushing me towards living). That only reinforces my notion of leaving this shithole existence called life.
 
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nochesenvela

just smoking through life
Dec 23, 2023
9
honestly, the scariest part about going through with CTB-ing is the fact that my mom told me she'd kill herself if i ever attempted again. i haven't talked to anybody about it, it sort of feels forbidden (i'm a little scared of even posting this message haha)

i'm not really scared of death, but knowing that my mother would follow me and leave my family behind is genuinely frightening to me.
 
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ididnotconsent

ididnotconsent

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Mar 16, 2025
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Yes, the reality of today's life is very scary. I saw the news about the Middle East this morning. Wars will last forever. Harsh dictators and politicians will not rest until they destroy the whole world in a nuclear war
There has never been a time in history when some war wasn't happening. That's insane.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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If they could walk in our shoes for a couple minutes they'd understand. I wish that was possible.
 
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Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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honestly, the scariest part about going through with CTB-ing is the fact that my mom told me she'd kill herself if i ever attempted again. i haven't talked to anybody about it, it sort of feels forbidden (i'm a little scared of even posting this message haha)

i'm not really scared of death, but knowing that my mother would follow me and leave my family behind is genuinely frightening to me.
My mother once told me that if I die, so will she. To which I replied, you are free to do whatever you want with your life. I know she is not serious, because my parents need to raise my still underage sister
🤗
 
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deepdarkgills

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Feb 15, 2024
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Whenever my family feels like I'm doing bad or thinking about suicide, they'd start saying stuff like "we can't live without you" and "we love you so much please think of us" and they make me feel like I'm selfish for thinking about suicide yet they always put themselves first.
Does anyone else relate to this?
my father, as much as i love him, and he's the one i find the most connection to out of all of my family, loves to say "just get your head out of your ass, tomorrow is another day"