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Rue89

Rue89

Visionary
Feb 10, 2020
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I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
 
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iDieUDie80

iDieUDie80

Arcanist
Jul 6, 2020
403
Gotta be a little more specific. What were you worrying about?
 
Fire&Ash

Fire&Ash

Specialist
Apr 15, 2020
379
I know I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed so I'm always posting a thread on how to do something because I don't want to screw up. And then I feel like it was dumb to post in the first place lol. What's on your mind?
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

Specialist
Jul 30, 2020
317
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
I can completely relate to this. I second guess everything I do and worry that I may piss somone off or disappoint them. I usually end up hiding away and saying nothing.
 
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restingspot

restingspot

Lucid Dreamer
May 30, 2019
224
Just because you're suffering less than somebody else, doesn't mean you magically stop suffering.

Society today has put a monopoly on pain. "Think of the starving children in Africa," or "there are people in way worse situations than you," and listing all of one's ailments on social media as if it were a popularity contest of whose life sucks more.....and the funny part about it all? It doesn't suddenly make YOUR problems go away.

Also, ignore the assholes who ridicule you. We all have intrusive and seemingly insignificant thoughts, but again, we monopolize the pain. Don't do that.
 
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DeathNoot

DeathNoot

Student
Feb 19, 2020
137
I can completely relate to this. I second guess everything I do and worry that I may piss somone off or disappoint them. I usually end up hiding away and saying nothing.
Yup I've made one thread here, otherwise I only comment. Even that I don't post half of them after typing them out.
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,864
I don't think the threads I post are silly or insignificant, but apparently they are, because no one replies to them.
The last thread I made got one reply, and it was a troll.
Even on a forum where everybody cares for one another no one gives a shit about me.
Story of my life. I'm always on the outside looking in.

I've wanted to start a vent thread for a couple weeks now, because I've got some serious shit going on, and need some help, but what's the point? No one will give a shit.
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

Specialist
Jul 30, 2020
317
I

Yup I've made one thread here, otherwise I only comment. Even that I don't post half of them after typing them out.
Me
I don't think the threads I post are silly or insignificant, but apparently they are, because no one replies to them.
The last thread I made got one reply, and it was a troll.
Even on a forum where everybody cares for one another no one gives a shit about me.
Story of my life. I'm always on the outside looking in.

I've wanted to start a vent thread for a couple weeks now, because I've got some serious shit going on, and need some help, but what's the point? No one will give a shit.
I can promise you I will listen. Maybe even share the shit going on in my life. Even if we're just venting to each other.
 
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WatermelonMel

WatermelonMel

Melon Master
Aug 19, 2019
408
I don't think the threads I post are silly or insignificant, but apparently they are, because no one replies to them.
It might make you feel better to know a lot of people are just lurkers, they read everything on here but don't respond.
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

Specialist
Jul 30, 2020
317
I couldn't say my problems are worse than anyone else's. (They probably aren't). But they're mine and they are real. We all have our demons and each of our tolerance for life shit is different
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
Yeah all the time, not enough to delete them tho. I don't think you have to delete them either I mean everyone has different things to talk about and I'm sure someone is maybe wondering the same thing as you and would appreciate your post
 
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falloutcarter13

falloutcarter13

Bury me, bury me...
Aug 1, 2020
671
Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread.
This seems to be a running theme tonight. Don't take that shit personally, if you can help it. People here are in pain, and a lot of times people in pain try to diffuse it by spreading it. It's second nature for some people. I know I think everybody has a right to express themselves here, and whatever is on their mind is worth putting out there. Here even moreso than in everyday life, we never know how much time someone has left. We should be more aware of that and be spreading as much love and acceptance as we can. Every single human on earth, past and present, has/is going to die...its just a matter of when. We should all stop being so arrogant that we think we know what's important and what isn't lol. ((hugs)) be yourself here, if nowhere else. No one is being forced to read your posts, and they're damn sure not being forced to reply with something negative. That's their choice.
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

Specialist
Jul 30, 2020
317
This seems to be a running theme tonight. Don't take that shit personally, if you can help it. People here are in pain, and a lot of times people in pain try to diffuse it by spreading it. It's second nature for some people. I know I think everybody has a right to express themselves here, and whatever is on their mind is worth putting out there. Here even moreso than in everyday life, we never know how much time someone has left. We should be more aware of that and be spreading as much love and acceptance as we can. Every single human on earth, past and present, has/is going to die...its just a matter of when. We should all stop being so arrogant that we think we know what's important and what isn't lol. ((hugs)) be yourself here, if nowhere else. No one is being forced to read your posts, and they're damn sure not being forced to reply with something negative. That's their choice.
Well said. But.......Sometimes it's hard not to take things personally, especially when already down. I know I sure do.
@rue89 i don't want to hijack your thread, but man I feel like shit tonight. Just wanted to say say that.....
 
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SoIntoYou

SoIntoYou

Pillowman
Jul 9, 2020
214
Nah man. First of all, when it comes to depression, nothing it too small to talk about. Second, the people here are really nice because, when you walk the line between life and death, the small things seem to matter less.
 
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thereandgone

Trying to close my loop
May 7, 2020
68
Don't worry. Like some of the others have said, nothing is too small or insignificant to talk about. If anyone is ridiculing you, be sure to report them as harrassing/bullying/insulting other members is against the rules.
 
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Sinai Silence

Sinai Silence

I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Jul 6, 2020
810
Even if you feel your posts silly or insignificant people will appreciate your input nonetheless. Just post whatever you feels right, at the end of the day people are coming and going a lot here so they wont mind what you post.
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
All the time!! Ive been posting regularly since February and still ask myself, "do you REALLY want to take up the space?" before clicking post reply. I know this is a compassionate place for the most part, but that almost makes me not want to butt in or screw it up even more. Because I never fit in anywhere and don't expect it to start now :,) no one's fault but my own.

I get jealous of people who don't take it so seriously, who post a lot more consistently than I do and are able to get to know other members or make friends or whatever. Like the chat box may as well be in another dimension; I have no idea how people are able to do that stuff. There are so many things going through my head every time I try to say something, it's just impossible to keep up... :( I know it's okay to be shy and everything, but it just sucks and I hate it.
 
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Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

Just waiting....
Jan 21, 2020
995
I don't think the threads I post are silly or insignificant, but apparently they are, because no one replies to them.
The last thread I made got one reply, and it was a troll.
Even on a forum where everybody cares for one another no one gives a shit about me.
Story of my life. I'm always on the outside looking in.

I've wanted to start a vent thread for a couple weeks now, because I've got some serious shit going on, and need some help, but what's the point? No one will give a shit.
Plz don't take it personal (yes, easier said than done) when no one responds to your thread...I will often read a thread and if I have nothing substantial to contribute, I just won't say anything, esp on a topic that I have no experience or info about..It doesnt mean that I dont care about what's posted...

Also, new threads often come up so fast that I (and possibly many others) don't get an opportunity to read many of them...

But I/we do care and give a shit about u♡♡♡
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
I'm sorry u feel this way, baby girl♡

I think u could possibly b just overthinking it..

If anyone is uninterested in what u have to say, they can just skip over your thread..Periodt..

There are many of us who are interested in what u have to say, so vent/post away..♡
 
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Folie

Folie

Member
Jul 14, 2020
36
I feel like my posts sound needy or come off as a cry for attention, yet that's how all the posts look because we're on a site about suicide. I dunno why I let it affect me, but I do. It's probably why I've only ever started a thread twice. I just feel silly doing it.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,135
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
feeling the same way, especially when im really down i feel like i shouldnt post stuff at all, and if i do, most times i feel like i shouldnt have posted anything at all and i keep on spiraling down..
 
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death becomes her

Member
Jul 3, 2020
35
Same! I have severe social anxiety so I think everything I do or say is the dumbest thing in the world. I'll lie in bed at night analyzing every conversation I've had that day. Here helps a bit because I'm anonymous so I can always delete my account if I get too ashamed of something I've posted.

But in summary you are not alone in this!
 
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LetzteAusfahrt

LetzteAusfahrt

Swiss gay, will definitely ctb on October 10th
Jun 27, 2020
590
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
I don't know what you wrote and deleted right away.

But it will have had something to do with the fact that you want to commit suicide and a question will concern you.

Is there anything more important than thinking about this topic and answering all questions?
 
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Ness

Ness

They/Them pronouns, please
Aug 28, 2019
248
Absolutely understandable, I haven't posted much in a while because I keep thinking I shouldn't complain for what seems to be no reason (even though I know I have reason) and it's also why I generally keep to my own vent thread more often than not. Even commenting has been hard lately, I legit thought I was going to delete this text before posting...
 
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Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
853
Nah post away. If people aren't interested then they don't have to read the thread. Simple.
 
Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
754
I've made a few threads lately that shortly after posting I deleted it and hoped that nobody saw it because I thought I was being ridiculous or the thing I was worrying about was silly/stupid. Sometimes I feel like I worry about the stupidest little things when it comes to my ctb. Today I know I right in thinking that because I was ridiculed for it, and I promptly deleted the thread. But I wonder if I'm just overreacting most of the time. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
Oh dear. I believe you dont have to. Its a free speech and well, think of it this way, we are all struggling with our CTB, youre questions or inquiries might help others who are struggling with it too. :hug:
 
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