Discussion Anyone else feel like a sicko?

[Everydayismisery]

I've tried partial hanging so many times in the middle of the night, pushing down so hard with a pillowcase over my head with my hands and feet tied while my parents and brother are sleeping a few rooms over. Every time I fail and give up, I wake up the next day and see my family/chat with coworkers and boss in meetings, I reflect and think damn no one knows what I did last night and would probably think I'm a psychopath. It feels like I'm privately very sick in the head, I guess I am but it's a strange feeling.

 

[chloramine]

Not specifically that it makes me or anyone else a sicko, but it's definitely off-putting to know you tried to kill yourself last night and just. Nobody knows. Nobody sees. Life is just normal after what's supposed to be this big deal. It feels weird

 

[Tbj123]

It's strange to recognize how mentally ill I am. Sometimes I wish I was delusional or able to live in some sort of dissociated state.

 

[Sleeper System]

We're all sick in our own way. We just have tools that allow us to cope with things and prolong our life span. Be worried when the tools stop working. That's when and where true psychos are born lol