Saed
Nondescript
- Apr 21, 2020
- 580
So,I was outside,waiting for a delivery.
This wasn't an audible voice I heard.
More like a stream of thoughts that entered my concious,like a silent,internal dialogue...
It was my body,saying "You don't need to kill me.
I am your friend and we can work through this together again" and all kinds of other guilt trippy-type stuff I won't post.
I was responding,"no,I am going to put you to rest.
I will terminate your suffering. It's the only benign thing I can do for you,now"
It just caught me offguard,because this is a hopeless,untenable situation which I am incapable of enduring any longer,and suicide is the only humane option.
Nothing can ever convince me otherwise.
This wasn't an audible voice I heard.
More like a stream of thoughts that entered my concious,like a silent,internal dialogue...
It was my body,saying "You don't need to kill me.
I am your friend and we can work through this together again" and all kinds of other guilt trippy-type stuff I won't post.
I was responding,"no,I am going to put you to rest.
I will terminate your suffering. It's the only benign thing I can do for you,now"
It just caught me offguard,because this is a hopeless,untenable situation which I am incapable of enduring any longer,and suicide is the only humane option.
Nothing can ever convince me otherwise.