Discussion Anyone else despise taking care of their body?

[Done_with_the_world]

I have been so sick of trying to take care of my dumb body for as long as I can remember.

I get angry at my stomach whenever it rumbles and wish I could ignore eating. I hate the sensation of eating. I feel so gross and disgusting when I feel full and feel a lot better when I don't eat for a while. The feeling of having food move through my body is so gross to me.

Recently my body has also been just so sluggish and tired recently, and I can't concentrate. I'm so angry at myself for not being able to stay focused. I wish the stupid fatigue would go away. I went to the doctor but it will take a while for results to come in. I hav to do blood work, to see what it is. I hope it's not prediabetes, since Halloween has come and gone. I'm getting annoyed because I really want to do my housework, and also my homework. But I'm too tired to do it. I'm getting severely angry at the mess.

I have just grown so tired of living, and the process of me being alive. Wondering if anyone else can relate.

 

[Adûnâi]

Absolutely! Eating, shitting and and sleeping are vile. I hate how most people love talking about food - and I'm not even anorexic. I might consider liking life if existence were possible on the proverbial "spiritual realm".

...Still, it can be bearable if I'm utterly absorbed in some activity, forgetting that I have a body altogether!

 

[MentalFuneral]

I feel the opposite way honestly. I feel incredibly guilty about the thought of killing my body and it makes it difficult for me to CTB. I wish I could donate it, to someone who would live a real life with it.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. Taking care of my body is just so exhausting. A reason as to why I personally like the idea of death is because there will be no me meaning that I don't have to ever take care of my body or do anything ever again

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do enjoy food but I hate how needy our bodies are. Plus, if you reject those needs, or over indulge in them, how much you get punished for it. I really sympathise with you just feeling exhausted of living. I wake up tired, work to sustain a life I don't even want to live. Sleep and then, do it all again. That's dumb right? Surely, anyone could see that's a stupid thing to do.

 

[davidtorez]

I do enjoy food but I hate how needy our bodies are. Plus, if you reject those needs, or over indulge in them, how much you get punished for it. I really sympathise with you just feeling exhausted of living. I wake up tired, work to sustain a life I don't even want to live. Sleep and then, do it all again. That's dumb right? Surely, anyone could see that's a stupid thing to do.

That's me too. It's absolutely pointless and should not be called a life or living , it's called existing for the sake of existing, no more than farm animals really