anyone else constantly in a rush since being suicidal? (ocd)

[mourningyesterday]

ever since my thoughts on ctb got intense this year i live everyday in a hurry, not sure if its my ocd getting worse because thats also has gotten more severe since i lost the will to live but i dont know which one caused the other tbh

its like my brain just wants to get everything done out the way in a rush and go to bed and call it a day. anybody else feel like this. i wish i could relax my brain is so fried

 

[shiba]

I'm both lazy and detached and in a rush at the same time. I think I'm only in a rush to die because I don't want my grades to drop from being suicidal. Why do I care about my grades when I'm literally about to die? Idk

 

[Hangman.]

I can truly relate to what you're going through. Living with OCD can make every single day feel overwhelmingly painful and exhausting. It's a relentless struggle that leaves you feeling drained and frustrated, as if your mind never gets a moment of peace. The intrusive thoughts can become so constant and intense that the mind is just filled with nothing else than suicidal thoughts.