Anyone else attempting soon?

[madebrief]

I want and rather it be soon. Too much he'll to go through and I think I am burnt out with everything in life so far including what's to come. Too much to learn and nothing to enjoy.

 

[donelurking123]

Yes am waiting for my sn to arrive the 13th or 14th so just a couple days tbh I wish it was here only down side is I'm gonna have to rough it outdoors I don't really have privacy that sn requires for hours but I love nature so theres that think I'll have a bit of music and a blanket … hopefully all goes correct if I'm not found maybe I'll be a snack for some coyotes idk but i am ready am a ball of nerves everyday I can't take this anymore … do u have ctb plan ?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I can't sleep or get rest, everything is hell. It can't come soon enough.

 

[earshurt]

Ideally I'd be dead by Christmas, but Lord knows it's going to take a while for me to work up the guts to make the necessary preparations. I'm thinking maybe towards the middle of next year - I have enough savings to get me through until then.

 

[Anon1337]

I want to CTB in 2024.

 

[coyotestark]

It will be less than 72 hours before I turn my chest into a firing range.

 

[StolenLife]

Sometime between next week and dec 21. If I'm better off dead than not being a source of narcissistic supply for my mother then so be it.

 

[Dying Failure]

I want to try before Christmas but I have to find SN. Anyone that can help me please contact me. It's extremely difficult to gather all the informations.

Dm me I just ordered mine and it's shipped as of today.

 

[quietam pacem12]

Bei letztem Versuch eines Versuchs habe ich es nicht einmal bis zum gebuchten Hotel geschafft! Diesmal habe ich ein Haus für mich allein. Ich muss gehen, weil mein Vater mich abholen wird, while ich mich um die Katze und die Fische kümmere (wenn ich mich entscheide, zu bestehen, lasse ich zusätzliche Vorräte für die Fische und die Katze weg, keine Sorge), damit bin ich fertig einen Schritt näher. Wenn ich es schaffe, alle vorläufigen Medikamente zu nehmen und die SN nicht durchziehe, bin ich trotzdem glücklich, weil ich Ziel meinem Schritt näher gekommen bin.

Versucht es noch jemand?

Ja ich. Heute hole ich alles. Morgen komme ich wieder nach Hause und dann habe ich hoffentlich endlich Ruhe im Kopf.
Das wünsche ich dir auch, Erlösung.

Ich werde Mitte Oktober gehen, ich muss den Menschen, den ich liebe, ein letztes Mal besuchen, und danach werde ich dem ctb alles geben, was möglich ist. Tatsächlich brauche ich nur wenige Dinge, um alles einzurichten, aber das einzige, was ist, ist, den Bus zu nehmen, wenn SI auf der niedrigsten Leistung ist.

Wie fühlst du diejenigen, die bald ctb werden? Schwanken Sie auch ständig zwischen plötzlicher Angst und plötzlicher Erleichterung und Frieden?

Alles Liebe für dich <3

Ich versuche nicht, zum Handeln anzustiften, aber wir müssen an uns glauben <3

Liebe <3

Ja so würde ich das auch sagen. Ein Wechselbad der Gefühle. Angst, innerer Frieden und denken....endlich bin ich weg....

 

[quietam pacem12]

Ich versuche immer noch, eine Quelle für gutes Heroin zum Injizieren zu finden. Auch das Spritzen mit Nadeln aus der Apotheke muss geübt werden

Das ist nicht so schwer. Musst du vorher mit etwas Wasser üben. Am besten in der Armbeuge eine Ader nehmen.
müssen nach gutem heroin.
fahr in 2, 5 Stunden los um es mir zu holen.

 

[Jupit3rs]

Yeah, I'm going home soon. This month or the next... I cant wait anymore, it hurts so much. My only problem is where to do it... I don't want to do it here and scare people with my body, but i have no other choice. I guess i dont care at this point... My rope is waiting

 

[chaosandquiet]

Thanks for the responses. Is anyone attempting mid October? I'm attempting October 16th. x

My plan is for Oct 22, assuming SN arrives in time. How are you feeling?

 

[suicidalpushpop]

i'm waiting until my 27th birthday november 6th. i know i'll be a member of the 27 club.

 

[Hope:-)]

My plan is for Oct 22, assuming SN arrives in time. How are you feeling?

I am feeling quite nervous today! How about you?

 

[nixxeekes]

hope itll be soon for me. i don't have anything prepared yet but hopefully this month will be my last one.

 

[chaosandquiet]

I am feeling quite nervous today! How about you?

I start feeling anxious the more I think about it. If I can keep myself distracted, I'm fine. (Not that distracting myself is easy. Wish I could just sleep for the next week.)
What are you most nervous about? The thought of failing makes me quite nervous, tbh

 

[Hope:-)]

I start feeling anxious the more I think about it. If I can keep myself distracted, I'm fine. (Not that distracting myself is easy. Wish I could just sleep for the next week.)
What are you most nervous about? The thought of failing makes me quite nervous, tbh

Truthfully I hate to put this in your mind but I'm most nervous about any pain and discomfort. I'm also afraid of being stuck in my current life- unable to drive, unable to work basic things out etc due to cognitive difficulties sustained from inappropriate medication, so I'm scared I won't go through with it and will have wasted the SN which is now far harder to buy and will just be stuck in this life I have now. I'm telling myself I have to do it and am really hoping I go through with it. Wishing you the very best x

 

[chaosandquiet]

Truthfully I hate to put this in your mind but I'm most nervous about any pain and discomfort. I'm also afraid of being stuck in my current life- unable to drive, unable to work basic things out etc due to cognitive difficulties sustained from inappropriate medication, so I'm scared I won't go through with it and will have wasted the SN which is now far harder to buy and will just be stuck in this life I have now. I'm telling myself I have to do it and am really hoping I go through with it. Wishing you the very best x

Oh, don't worry about putting those thoughts in my mind - I've definitely considered all of that, as well. Feel free to PM me, if you'd like. Best of luck to you, as well. Hope you're able to find some peace

 

[Hope:-)]

Oh, don't worry about putting those thoughts in my mind - I've definitely considered all of that, as well. Feel free to PM me, if you'd like. Best of luck to you, as well. Hope you're able to find some peace

Thanks. Really appreciate it. Are you also going through sometimes feel like you can't go through with it? x

 

[chaosandquiet]

Thanks. Really appreciate it. Are you also going through sometimes feel like you can't go through with it? x

Not exactly. I've attempted to ctb through other methods and I was quite at peace with my decision. It's been a long time coming...
I totally understand that feeling, though. I had considered ctb over the years, but the circumstances and timing weren't right for me. A lot of things that stopped me before are no longer an issue.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm feeling awful, and wish I could ctb soon.

 

[ready to go....]

Yes, next week.
I shall spend the next few days relaxing, and getting my equipment ready.
This time, I feel calm. No nerves or doubtful thoughts, just peace and contentment.

 

[JAlexa]

I will be attempting this upcoming week. I'd originally planned to CTB last week, but circumstances didn't pan out. It won't happen again.