Anyone depressed because of a physical injury?

[jimmy7754]

Anyone depressed because of a physical injury?

What did you lose?

 

[Kennish]

Yes. My foot hurts. And they say they can't operate it. I hate it.

 

[nautilus]

Yes. I had a terrible accident 6 years ago. Im covered in nasty scars, but I also have nerve damage which , on top of my lyme , is hell on earth.

 

[Wrennie]

Anyone depressed because of a physical injury?

What did you lose?

I jumped off of a building and severed my femoral shaft from the femoral head, and despite surgical intervention I lost my ability to walk normally (I'm severely allergic to the titanium they inserted into my leg as well, and they refuse to remove it because they believe a heavy foreign metal object is "inert" in a biological organism and not actively being rejected by my body). I also broke my back in such a way so that I'm not paralyzed, but my movements are restricted. On top of all of that I have a horrendous neuropathic disease that my physicians are refusing to treat because the immunosuppressive drug I require to stave off its progression costs upwards of 20 grand per month.

 

[Sherri]

My heart goes to all of you, and to those who are bed ridden, like previous athletes or anyone who had such an active life. But they still wanna live, I admire that determination. Must be hard, I would end it if it was me. But good on them to keep the strength.

 

[jimmy7754]

I jumped off of a building and severed my femoral shaft from the femoral head, and despite surgical intervention I lost my ability to walk normally (I'm severely allergic to the titanium they inserted into my leg as well, and they refuse to remove it because they believe a heavy foreign metal object is "inert" in a biological organism and not actively being rejected by my body). I also broke my back in such a way so that I'm not paralyzed, but my movements are restricted. On top of all of that I have a horrendous neuropathic disease that my physicians are refusing to treat because the immunosuppressive drug I require to stave off its progression costs upwards of 20 grand per month.

Damn.

 

[Wrennie]

Damn.

Yep, it's pretty obvious why I'm on here.

 

[jimmy7754]

Yep, it's pretty obvious why I'm on here.

What's your plan?

 

[milly]

I jumped off of a building and severed my femoral shaft from the femoral head, and despite surgical intervention I lost my ability to walk normally (I'm severely allergic to the titanium they inserted into my leg as well, and they refuse to remove it because they believe a heavy foreign metal object is "inert" in a biological organism and not actively being rejected by my body). I also broke my back in such a way so that I'm not paralyzed, but my movements are restricted. On top of all of that I have a horrendous neuropathic disease that my physicians are refusing to treat because the immunosuppressive drug I require to stave off its progression costs upwards of 20 grand per month.

Was it a CTB attempt?

 

[Wrennie]

Was it a CTB attempt?

I was really messed up on a newly prescribed SNRI

What's your plan?

To try and die. But knowing me I'll fail at that as well and be even worse off, and then tortured by sociopathic nurses in a care home for the remainder of my miserable life. I want to be medically euthanized so that my death is 100% guaranteed, but even though I'd meet the criteria for Canada's MAiD and I live on the same continent, I was unfortunate enough to be born into Americuckland.

 

[NotSureToEndure]

It's definitely a big factor, I think. I haven't lost anything, nor is anything diagnosed, but I have very real (to me) pain and discomfort in certain parts of my body that cause me a lot of grief.

I'm sure depression could be part of it, but funnily enough I've had some of these pains for most of my adult life, and I don't think they've always been mood related. I used to be a really positive person on the whole, but I've lost that trait over the last few years :/

 

[BigGimpin]

My body is failing me, Im 52 and been in a wheelchair since I was 15 due to a motorcycle accident leaving me with a spinal cord injury, im paralyzed from the chest down. I never let it slow me down when I was younger, I was wild, from jumping my chair down flights of stairs to racing off road cars and actually winning a championship.

Once I hit my 30's things took a dramatic downward spiral. Started with back pain, then neuropathic pain that is unbearable! I feel like my entire body is in hot lava and the flesh is melting off my bones, and NOTHING changes them. I have been on opioids for over 20 years and now they dont work. My level of pain I deal with every second of every day is excruciating. My body is now failing me in so many ways I cant take it anymore. The last three years has been PURE HELL and I am ready to CTB asap. I hardly sleep but an hour a night, sometimes less, I cannot eat, my teeth have fallen out and I havent had a proper shower in 2 years when I lost the strength to do it myself.

I hate asking for help, I have been 100% independant my whole life, but now even that is going away, I dont want to die in a hospital, I want to die at home in peace, hoping to N from D.

Sorry if this is not making much sense, I fucking hurt.

 

[jimmy7754]

My body is failing me, Im 52 and been in a wheelchair since I was 15 due to a motorcycle accident leaving me with a spinal cord injury, im paralyzed from the chest down. I never let it slow me down when I was younger, I was wild, from jumping my chair down flights of stairs to racing off road cars and actually winning a championship.

Once I hit my 30's things took a dramatic downward spiral. Started with back pain, then neuropathic pain that is unbearable! I feel like my entire body is in hot lava and the flesh is melting off my bones, and NOTHING changes them. I have been on opioids for over 20 years and now they dont work. My level of pain I deal with every second of every day is excruciating. My body is now failing me in so many ways I cant take it anymore. The last three years has been PURE HELL and I am ready to CTB asap. I hardly sleep but an hour a night, sometimes less, I cannot eat, my teeth have fallen out and I havent had a proper shower in 2 years when I lost the strength to do it myself.

I hate asking for help, I have been 100% independant my whole life, but now even that is going away, I dont want to die in a hospital, I want to die at home in peace, hoping to N from D.

Sorry if this is not making much sense, I fucking hurt.

That's not fair. I'm sorry the opioids stopped working.

 

[whatevs]

Kinda. I injured my pelvic muscles and haven't felt anything with ejaculation in 10 years.

 

[Ashu]

Kinda. I injured my pelvic muscles and haven't felt anything with ejaculation in 10 years.

I'm curious to know how and why you ejaculate at all, in that case. I ask this with the empathy of a brother in our tribe.

 

[whatevs]

I'm curious to know how and why you ejaculate at all, in that case. I ask this with the empathy of a brother in our tribe.

Why would I know? The semen comes out with varying force, but I feel nothing. It started in 2011.

If I knew WHY it happens I would have it solved by a professional, don't you think? It seems to have to do with a muscle injury that I caused to myself trying to get a bigger dick.

My life story is a complete joke lmao. Let's be honest, what I did it's up there in the Mount Olympus of Chronic Embarrassment. I was born to lose.

 

[Ashu]

Why would I know? The semen comes out with varying force, but I feel nothing.

What I meant was, if you feel nothing, how are you able to stimulate yourself to ejaculation, and why do you want to. But on reflection I realize that you must still experience pleasure other than ejaculation, which will be why you're able to become aroused. And if you're having sex with a partner, obviously that adds a whole other dimension and motivation.

 

[whatevs]

What I meant was, if you feel nothing, how are you able to stimulate yourself to ejaculation, and why do you want to. But on reflection I realize that you must still experience pleasure other than ejaculation, which will be why you're able to become aroused. And if you're having sex with a partner, obviously that adds a whole other dimension and motivation.

You got it. I'm not sure if I should have understood that you needed that information, or if it made sense that it irritated me that it wasn't obvious to you. We got dragged into a retarded conversation, sorry about that lol.

Yes, I feel some pleasure, not much, but no orgasms or climax. With ejaculation absolutely nothing at all.

 

[NorseHel]

does noise induced hyperacusis count as a physical injury? in which case what I've lost is the ability to enjoy or even endure sound. before that, RSI from the elbows down preventing me from gaming or programming. the RSI is not the end of the world but... the hyperacusis sure feels like it.

 

[SpenceGence]

I've had chronic RSI in my hand/arm for six months now as well, and I assume nerve issues as well. Most of my symptoms are controllable, except for my elbows and the tip of my thumb. Until very recently I've been pretty disabled, unable to do the most basic things. Even now I have damage in my thumb that none of my doctors recognize, that prevents me from using a computer or my phone normally. It's not even just that. It seems like everything they brings me joy is problematic for my tendinitis. Like alcohol, weed, physical reading, phone/computer use, sex, etc. Honestly I think playing video games was the only true light in my life. It's what I miss more than anything. Everyone just tells me to use a foot wheel for the rest of my life. It's annoying hearing people tell you what should make you happy. I want to go back to the way things were. If other people can recover and play games after tendinitis, why can't I? Everyone tells me it will get better, but is better get enough? I just want to able to interact and play with my friends somewhat normally. I'm also on the spectrum, which is great for my social life. All of this is making me start to doubt whether or not the coming years will be worth it. I'm really trying to find solutions. But if I can't live an enjoyable life, what's the point in trying so hard?