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Daryl72

Student
Mar 12, 2024
161
When you are severely depressed and anxiety is at its worse, I feel like even the thought of food makes me ill. Just one more issue to deal with serious depression/mental illness and pushes me closer and closer to finding a way to ending it all.
 
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lemonbunny

lemonbunny

daydreaming the pain away ☆.。.:*・°
Sep 9, 2023
245
i don't lose my appetite by default, but if i'm triggered or stressed by something i automatically become nauseous nowadays. so it's easier to lose my appetite than normal
 
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annointed_towers

annointed_towers

I’ll cross my heart, I’ll hope to die
Dec 9, 2022
421
I find that the depression leads to inactivity so I never work up any hunger because I'm not expending any energy, so I eat less. Even when I do get hungry I am only able to take a few bites before I'm full
 
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tired_tired_tired

New Member
Apr 19, 2024
4
Yes, lost 15+ lbs in less than 2 months because of it
 
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Tesha

Tesha

Life too shall pass
May 31, 2020
920
I had a very bad triggering event on Tuesday. I realised on Friday night that I hadn't eaten since it occurred. How I'm still fat is beyond me… but I completely understand stress and deep depression wreaks havoc with appetite and digestion.
 
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wljourney

wljourney

Waiting for the bus
Apr 2, 2022
1,419
Same here.

Depression has been severe but for a long time I tried to eat my feelings. Didn't work of course.

Now that anxiety has joined the game I have gone days just with coffee in the morning, a handful of crackers and one ice cream bar at night - and not even that tastes good. No idea why I don't skip it completely.
Oh yea… headache from crying and undereating…

The only thing I enjoy somewhat is morning coffee.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,195
When you are severely depressed and anxiety is at its worse, I feel like even the thought of food makes me ill. Just one more issue to deal with serious depression/mental illness and pushes me closer and closer to finding a way to ending it all.
Not so much lately but at times I've had bad stomach pains to where I barely eat.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,195
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Same here, stomach cramps due to stress and IBS issues also has me unable to eat.
Yeah I think stress for me. Food just doesn't taste as good anymore in all honesty.
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
582
Food starts to taste bland. No motivation to take care of myself. Hunger headaches like migraines.
 
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Morte

Morte

Arcanist
Nov 23, 2023
406
I eat more junk food to distract myself from depression. Food is one of the few pleasures I still have in life
 
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Daryl72

Student
Mar 12, 2024
161
I eat more junk food to distract myself from depression. Food is one of the few pleasures I still have in life
yes when I have junk food or sweets I tend to go for that as well. Anything quick and that I can. grab and eat. Not healthy whatsoever, but when you are so ill and don't want to eat at all, sometimes it's all you got.
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Warlock
Mar 8, 2024
772
When you are severely depressed and anxiety is at its worse, I feel like even the thought of food makes me ill. Just one more issue to deal with serious depression/mental illness and pushes me closer and closer to finding a way to ending it all.
Yes definitely for me it's the same
 
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moscowmuffin

Member
Jun 30, 2024
7
Going through this right now, it's a helpless feeling. The weakness and fatigue is bad, but feeling nothing can change it is worse.

A sick side note, I put on some weight during the heights of the pandemic and struggled to lose it. Now feeling like absolute garbage for months, I have lost that weight and my therapist wanted me to take that as a small victory - like I should be happy that this suffocating misery was like if I hit the gym regularly smh
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
384
I've had anorexia/ bullima/ lax abuse for literally 15 years, my body just doesn't want food...maybe its just been trying to subconsciously kill itself for years cos it doesn't want to be here who knows
 
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nymb

nymb

scumbag
Jun 25, 2024
47
my eating patterns always have changed someweek i hated eating and ate only 500cal, someweek i binged over 5000 cal food everyday. I dont really understand it but i am used to.
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,197
Same, suffering from depression mixed with Ana for 15+ years (IE its never going away) and am currently deeply in the cycle of restricting.
 
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Daryl72

Student
Mar 12, 2024
161
Same, suffering from depression mixed with Ana for 15+ years (IE its never going away) and am currently deeply in the cycle of restricting.

Same, suffering from depression mixed with Ana for 15+ years (IE its never going away) and am currently deeply in the cycle of restricting.
Thanks everyone for all your replies . My body just doesn't want food either. I know I need to eat, but it's near impossible when your body seems to reject anything you try and eat.
 
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