Discussion Anyone CTB soon?

[oxymoron]

Anyone planning it within the next week?

 

[BPD Barbie]

*waves*

 

[forever21]

Hopefully even this week. Researched here since mid-October and am so ready to go.

 

[oxymoron]

Hopefully even this week. Researched here since mid-October and am so ready to go.

What's your method and where are you from if you don't mind?

 

[forever21]

What's your method and where are you from if you don't mind?

CN and Germany.

 

[oxymoron]

CN and Germany.

Peace will be yours.

*waves*

What about you?

 

[lymestolemylife]

Thinking about it, my symptoms are bad again. I don't want to do it, I want to be with my family, I feel like i'm being forced to do this. No one should have to deal with the symptoms I have. This is bullshit. Why won't God help me? Suffer here in life with horrific symptoms, and be with my family, or kill myself. Honestly my illness is so bad i'm loosing my hair, I don't want to live life with patchy hair loss. Why was I subjected to this cruel fate?

 

[Farmmaa]

I am

 

[oxymoron]

I am

Thinking about it, my symptoms are bad again. I don't want to do it, I want to be with my family, I feel like i'm being forced to do this. No one should have to deal with the symptoms I have. This is bullshit. Why won't God help me? Suffer here in life with horrific symptoms, and be with my family, or kill myself. Honestly my illness is so bad i'm loosing my hair, I don't want to live life with patchy hair loss. Why was I subjected to this cruel fate?

I am

how?

 

[Farmmaa]

F overdose.

 

[Despondent]

No :/ I've come to terms that I have only suicidal ideation (as of now). I wish I wanted to take my own life and had the guts to ctb instead if fantasizing all of the time.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Peace will be yours.

What about you?

SN tomorrow, all being well.

 

[Thereisnothing]

Anyone planning it within the next week?

No because for me although I dont wish to be here anymore, I dont wish to die either and emotions and feelings/thoughts etc are always changing, albeit still very bleak. So personally I am not planning a date or day, furthermore I dont even have a viable method worked out and that is very important.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

if i can get some consistent fade-outs with tourniquet, YES. have been practicing and struggling with it a lot.

i'm about ready to leap off a mid-rise building, but i'm worried it won't kill me.

No :/ I've come to terms that I have only suicidal ideation (as of now). I wish I wanted to take my own life and had the guts to ctb instead if fantasizing all of the time.

It sounds like you might still have some reason to live - i would personally cling to that like nothing else.

I don't envy anyone who is in the position where the fear of living consistently outweighs the fear of dying.

 

[porfin1234]

I got SN and Tagamet... but need to do more research... honestly don't want to die. But I feel I have screwed up so badly (job home situation got drunk in public ticket etc etc) and can't stop obsessive thoughts over mistakes.. and hate myself so much... I want to try just have to be so careful and make sure I'm serious. Don't need to end up in ER with tubes everywhere and more hospital bills.

i am terrified of life and death. Which one outweighs the other is the question.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Tomorrow if everything goes right.

 

[enlightened_suicide]

Just ordered my SN I'm gonna give it a try, it seems to be pretty effective and efficient through all I've read here

 

[Elbarado]

Thinking about it, my symptoms are bad again. I don't want to do it, I want to be with my family, I feel like i'm being forced to do this. No one should have to deal with the symptoms I have. This is bullshit. Why won't God help me? Suffer here in life with horrific symptoms, and be with my family, or kill myself. Honestly my illness is so bad i'm loosing my hair, I don't want to live life with patchy hair loss. Why was I subjected to this cruel fate?

why are you losing your hair? is it cause of cancer and chemo ?

 

[oxymoron]

Tomorrow if everything goes right.

What you doing?

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Was waiting for my sn bit it will only arrive 24 jan so im probably going to hang myself before

 

[HereToday]

I'll be gone by the end of the week. SN

 

[enough1964]

F overdose.

Can you tell me how you were able to get F? I am trying to figure it out for myself. The dark web seems difficult, especially Biticoins

 

[Farmmaa]

Can you tell me how you were able to get F? I am trying to figure it out for myself. The dark web seems difficult, especially Biticoins

The darkweb. Sorry. LOL

It's not that hard... just keep at it and it's not much harder to navigate than regular internet.
The bitcoins took a while for me to figure out for sure.

 

[sub_o]

Next week, hopefully I will be dead dead.
Thanks to my family who seems to want me dead ASAP.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

I have some pretty decent friends and one worthwhile family member, but I also have my ticket.

I'd recently lost my ticket - long story - and avowed to never land in that position again. I felt pretty lousy for a long time. I'm firmly of the opinion no one should catch the bus unless they're in a place of perfect mental calm, which I've reached recently.

OP asks next week. I dunno, but feels more natural than when I was screaming "right freaking now!"

 

[Squiddy]

No :/ I've come to terms that I have only suicidal ideation (as of now). I wish I wanted to take my own life and had the guts to ctb instead if fantasizing all of the time.

I'm the exact same way currently. I wish I had the guts to just end it all

 

[Peacefulness]

Should you ctb if you may have enemies who would love that you would. my enemies would love it but I'm just so tired

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Should you ctb if you may have enemies who would love that you would. my enemies would love it but I'm just so tired

If you care how the world looks after your death, then continue living

 

[NotGoneButNotHere]

Me in a couple days

 

[lymestolemylife]

why are you losing your hair? is it cause of cancer and chemo ?

No I have Chronic Lyme it's very bad these days. 20 years of Lyme wreaked havoc on my body.