Anyone +38 here? How old are you?

[Sullun]

I'm 37. Planning to ctb before I turn 40.

I'm 36 and plan to do the same.

 

[The Lonely]

im 45 and always knew that life just wasnt for me, i just never fit. ive tried so hard over the course of my life to be met with so much hurt, pain and disappointment, ive stopped trying now and feel comforted in that i will be ctb once my affairs are in order

Hey dear! Nice nick! Gone with the Wind is one of my Top movies. Along with The Bridges of Madison County, Harold and Maude(…) :)

 

[Myforevercharlie]

45.

 

[Otto]

Hi I'm 51,had these feelings since I was around 7
I feel I've tried everything now ,had failed attempts in the past .
things are going steadily down hill.imhappy to chat to anyone

 

[scarletohara]

Hey dear! Nice nick! Gone with the Wind is one of my Top movies. Along with The Bridges of Madison County, Harold and Maude(…) :)

its my favourite film of all time, one of the greatest in my opinion. i have to admit i have not seen bridges but i have heard its good :)

 

[The Lonely]

I'm 40 and I often ask myself if I could go back in time, what would I change about my life. And the answer is that I would have killed myself back when I was a kid, when I first wanted to. But for some reason, I had hope back then that my life would improve. If I knew then that my life would only get worse and worse, I would have just ended it then and saved myself the misery.

I feel the same way. But at the same time, I was suicidal when I was a kid and it never improved for me. But I feel like there's a chance that it could for some people who are young. The brain isn't fully developed until mid-20s. And for those who are still living at home (especially in abusive homes), I think there is a chance for improvement when they get out on their own, start their own life, etc. For me, none of that mattered because I have endured so much trauma that I just can't be fixed. But I think there might be a chance for some young people.

Perfect!! I totally agree with that!

Some days I feel myself more judgmental about the young…
All my life I just had a few years of some happiness. (Here i think about kids going out of their abusive homes is a chance they should try!)

But as I try to track what did wrong I realize that, given the environment In which I was brought up in, the genetics, society issues…. The final result would be something like this.

 

[Gabriel.88]

18, and it´s not a phase.... If there was an option to just ctb without leaving any pain to my mom, I would take it right away

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm 20. I never want to reach an old age, it is my worst nightmare. I have never wanted to be alive my whole life and I have always struggled with existing. I have physical health problems that make me feel much older.

 

[loopylou]

I just turned 37, but I feel like I'm 70. Think the brain is going senile already.

I just turned 37 also and I feel 70. I'm really forgetful it's well annoying

 

[Sullun]

18, and it´s not a phase.... If there was an option to just ctb without leaving any pain to my mom, I would take it right away

I no longer care about the pain it will cause / leave behind. In time they will realise why I did it and that it was best for everyone.

 

[fly away]

I am going to be 60 yrs old. Have felt this way since age 9.
I can't believe I'm still here. I've tried every treatment available to me.
Im so tired, so beaten up inside, so alone, so ignored.
I just want to go.

 

[Adamsnolife]

I'm 33 going on 34. Hopefully won't be getting near to 40.

 

[Bullit]

He's a boomer. A lot of them seem to think that being young solves every problem imaginable...

I guess that's a fair criticism! But I'm well meaning!

 

[2Min2Midnight]

I'm in the same boat as you mate, 40 in November

 

[Robert]

I am 24

 

[goat]

I'm 29 years old

 

[The Lonely]

That's it:

 

[Mixo]

I'm 40 and I often ask myself if I could go back in time, what would I change about my life. And the answer is that I would have killed myself back when I was a kid, when I first wanted to. But for some reason, I had hope back then that my life would improve. If I knew then that my life would only get worse and worse, I would have just ended it then and saved myself the misery.

I feel the same way. But at the same time, I was suicidal when I was a kid and it never improved for me. But I feel like there's a chance that it could for some people who are young. The brain isn't fully developed until mid-20s. And for those who are still living at home (especially in abusive homes), I think there is a chance for improvement when they get out on their own, start their own life, etc. For me, none of that mattered because I have endured so much trauma that I just can't be fixed. But I think there might be a chance for some young people.

Wow, I feel like I could have written this post. I first thought about dying when I was 19 and I managed to survive my 20s pretty much unscathed until I got into my 30s. Now I see what a senseless waste of time being alive was. I never knew how much worse life could really get and how much agonizing pain a human could just barely endure for years on end. I also just feel my overall sense of failure in life so much deeper than I did in my 20s when I still had time to amount to something. It just gets harder and harder to hold onto any redeeming factor for life as I'm aging.

 

[I'm scared]

54...so old but knowing my luck if I don't do something I will live until 100.

 

[Bigpink]

58 and truly done.

 

[goat]

You guys that are more mature, did you feel suicidal when you were in your 20s/30s?

I'm 29yo, I'm young, but I have suicidal ideas since I was 8 because of severe abuse and neglect in my household at the time. So it's no news to me. I always knew I'd catch the bus one day :) it took me 21 years tho.

You guys are in this dark pit for long too? Or when you were my age you were free and experimenting from that "invincible and immortal" feeling young people describe to have? :)

 

[motel rooms]

I'm 29yo, I'm young, but I have suicidal ideas since I was 8 because of severe abuse and neglect in my household at the time. So it's no news to me. I always knew I'd catch the bus one day :) it took me 21 years tho.

You guys are in this dark pit for long too? Or when you were my age you were free and experimenting from that "invincible and immortal" feeling young people describe to have? :)

My story is kind of similar to yours, but I'm 40.
Youthful invincibility?

 

[Hurt]

30 soon. Soon enter the 30s. Good or bad? Dunno!

 

[artemis1223]

If things go pretty wrong … I'll be 40 in November :/

Not feeling too judgmental these days about young guys here… I think Im postponing the thing I should have done so long ago… I fought a lot. I'm just not winning anymore.

I'm 70 years old. I have had clinical depression since my teen years. I am alone. No relatives or friends. I still work part time. I have tried cutting my wrists and overdosing. Nothing.

 

[The Lonely]

Have you guys already tried Membership at Exit and got It denied?
Or Accepted?? Would mind pm me? Thanks

 

[artemis1223]

Have you guys already tried Membership at Exit and got It denied?
Or Accepted?? Would mind pm me? Thanks

I never tried Exit, it is too costly. I do not know how to PM anyone since I'm new.