Anyone +38 here? How old are you?

[The Lonely]

If things go pretty wrong … I'll be 40 in November :/

Not feeling too judgmental these days about young guys here… I think Im postponing the thing I should have done so long ago… I fought a lot. I'm just not winning anymore.

 

[Roseate]

If things go pretty wrong … I'll be 40 in November :/

Not feeling too judgmental these days about young guys here… I think Im postponing the thing I should have done so long ago… I fought a lot. I'm just not winning anymore.

What thing? And I'm confused?

 

[The Lonely]

What thing? And I'm confused?

If i didn't get my ticket until then

 

[Roseate]

If i didn't get my ticket until then

What ticket?

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm 33 but I don't wanna reach my 40s either.
I'm deffo getting the hell outta this blue rock before that lol.

 

[meetapple]

I am 48. I just feel like I have wasted even more of my life than I would have had I ctb earlier. I don't feel like my efforts have paid off. I was just too scared to take my own life. I also have good parents who would be hurt if I took my own life.

 

[Shadowgeist]

I'm 43, and with everything going wrong in my life, it's too late in life for me to start over. Just waiting to get some affairs in order so I can ctb. SN should be here next week, and hopefully I can get out of this existence in the next few weeks.

 

[antmann]

I'm only 21, but damaged myself beyond repair. To the point where starting over doesn't seem possible

 

[Sleepdrifter]

I'm around that age too. The older I get the less relevant age feels. It's quite liberating, when you're in your adolecence and your 20s you have such pressure to perform, while not being taken seriously at the same time. People seem to intrinsically respect you more if you're older which I appreciate.

 

[Deadlyroses]

I'm 25. Will more than likely not make it to 26. I can't comprehend or conceptualize the prospect of living for another whole decade or even longer. I just can't do it. The pain of living is just too fucking much.

 

[The Lonely]

I am 48. I just feel like I have wasted even more of my life than I would have had I ctb earlier. I don't feel like my efforts have paid off. I was just too scared to take my own life. I also have good parents who would be hurt if I took my own life.

I feel that I didn't really lived at all… Nice to hear that you have your parents.

I'm 43, and with everything going wrong in my life, it's too late in life for me to start over. Just waiting to get some affairs in order so I can ctb. SN should be here next week, and hopefully I can get out of this existence in the next few weeks.

I got into the same conclusion: its easier for me to End this life than to Rebuild it.

 

[Bullit]

I am 48. I just feel like I have wasted even more of my life than I would have had I ctb earlier. I don't feel like my efforts have paid off. I was just too scared to take my own life. I also have good parents who would be hurt if I took my own life.

Yes I have that horrible feeling.of life wasted. Goddamn me,but then again,I was born screwed up. My life went sideways very early.

 

[jj83]

I'm 37. Planning to ctb before I turn 40.

 

[Bullit]

I'm only 21, but damaged myself beyond repair. To the point where starting over doesn't seem possible

Forgive me,er,ant man,but come on dude! You're 21! You know what they say: young,dumb,and full of cum! I know those hormones can make life hell,but you're young and maybe you can change things??? Wishing you the best!

 

[motel rooms]

You're 21! You know what they say: young,dumb,and full of cum!

I'm 40 & I still have some cum left, but I'm also full of shit

 

[In2TheVoid]

24 but feel 500

 

[BottomlessPit]

Forgive me,er,ant man,but come on dude! You're 21! You know what they say: young,dumb,and full of cum! I know those hormones can make life hell,but you're young and maybe you can change things???

You couldn't have been more condescending and inconsiderate. I would expect such rhetoric from a prolifer tbh

 

[motel rooms]

You couldn't have been more condescending and inconsiderate. I would expect such rhetoric from a prolifer tbh

He's a boomer. A lot of them seem to think that being young solves every problem imaginable...

 

[CleosAsp]

48.

 

[miulake]

I am 30. But I feel so tired, like 60 or something. I just want to end it.

 

[Need2Escape]

I am in my late 40s.

 

[Symbiote]

I just turned 37, but I feel like I'm 70. Think the brain is going senile already.

 

[suicidesheep31]

Also 37...

 

[The Lonely]

Forgive me,er,ant man,but come on dude! You're 21! You know what they say: young,dumb,and full of cum! I know those hormones can make life hell,but you're young and maybe you can change things??? Wishing you the best!

Well… some days i think like this, but then I remember the hell I'm living since "Ever"!!? Then I respect the kids pain etc…
My path was already designed since my early years.
Now that I'm old I can see clearly why I would never had a happy ending…

I just turned 37, but I feel like I'm 70. Think the brain is going senile already.

All my life I was the old soul in the room … But now as I'm really old and since i didn't lived… i feel like I'm a child…

 

[sunburst]

37 and I lost interest in life year ago

 

[loopylou]

I'm 37 close enough ?

 

[antmann]

Forgive me,er,ant man,but come on dude! You're 21! You know what they say: young,dumb,and full of cum! I know those hormones can make life hell,but you're young and maybe you can change things??? Wishing you the best!

I appreciate the kind wishes, if only it was hormones that I had to deal with... I managed to mess up my entire life with a string of many bad decisions in only a year. Now I'm left with a whole lotta debt and what seems like irreversible brain damage... but then again I did this to myself so you get what you deserve I guess

 

[scarletohara]

im 45 and always knew that life just wasnt for me, i just never fit. ive tried so hard over the course of my life to be met with so much hurt, pain and disappointment, ive stopped trying now and feel comforted in that i will be ctb once my affairs are in order

 

[Apathy79]

41 here. Statistically about half way.

One thing I've noticed about my own reactions to suicide is if the person is over about 30, I really don't feel anything. I figure they knew it was the right call by then and its not a sad event. I still have trouble dealing with the vast majority of younger suicides, particularly under 20. Not sure if thats rational or just one of my biases but I frequently think how much things can change then, both circumstantially and how things are mentally/emotionally processed, with a few exceptions.

I mean age certainly isn't everything and there are exceptions on both sides but I find that reaction is still pretty consistent averaged out.

 

[alwaysSuffering]

I'm 40 and I often ask myself if I could go back in time, what would I change about my life. And the answer is that I would have killed myself back when I was a kid, when I first wanted to. But for some reason, I had hope back then that my life would improve. If I knew then that my life would only get worse and worse, I would have just ended it then and saved myself the misery.

One thing I've noticed about my own reactions to suicide is if the person is over about 30, I really don't feel anything. I figure they knew it was the right call by then and its not a sad event. I still have trouble dealing with the vast majority of younger suicides, particularly under 20. Not sure if thats rational or just one of my biases but I frequently think how much things can change then, both circumstantially and how things are mentally/emotionally processed, with a few exceptions.

I feel the same way. But at the same time, I was suicidal when I was a kid and it never improved for me. But I feel like there's a chance that it could for some people who are young. The brain isn't fully developed until mid-20s. And for those who are still living at home (especially in abusive homes), I think there is a chance for improvement when they get out on their own, start their own life, etc. For me, none of that mattered because I have endured so much trauma that I just can't be fixed. But I think there might be a chance for some young people.