anybody else who never had any ambitions?

[AUTIST777]

I've been in self-destruct, impulsive mode since teenager. My only joy in life is getting drunk/high.
If we lived in a morally just society, then people with mental illnesses would be offered the choice to die with dignity in a clinical setting.

 

[Trifecta]

I've also never had ambitions, I just followed the blueprint society gives you with barely any forethought to the choices I was making. I don't know why but I've never wanted anything longterm and, well, it unsurprisingly ended up fucking me up longterm.

 

[foreverfalling]

Never, I did things because I was supposed to, not because I particularly wanted to. I could never really imagine myself 10 years in the future. My default state is of anxiety, so I just really want to be in a state where I can worry less, instead of trying to do more. And trying to pursue anything always leads to unnecessary trouble.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I've never had any ambitions apart from dying. There's never been anything here for me in this world and being alive has never really interested me. I've always seen non existence as being the preferable option as life is just endless problems and suffering all for the sake of it. Existence is just so pointless and I just don't understand how anyone could want to exist in a world as cruel as this.

 

[MidnightDream]

I could have written this post myself tbh. I've never understood ambition, never really had any particular goals or wants for my life, mostly just feel apathy towards it all.

 

[Ligottian]

I used to have some modest ambitions. But most of them never materialized.

 

[Hangman]

Not much. When I was teenager I saw myself becoming bearded hermit living in a secluded cottage. It seems I'm not far from that track.

My father still kind of expects I should progress in life and/or get therapy. I don't have motivation to achieve anything "better".

 

[Klophy]

My lack of ambition is a part of why i'm in this situation.

I've wanted a lot of things but have no motivation or drive to actually achieve them. It all seems so pointless.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

The one time I truly tried to live wthr purpose my perennial issues interfered again.