Anybody else not do anything?

[hamvil]

I am essentially in holiday since two months (university professor, not much to do in summer). Now I have to go back to school, meet students and colleagues. I am already in panic mode. I do not like the collegues and even less the students. I feel sorry that maybe I give them a poor service, but I need the money to live and I have a very nice skillset. I spent my summer in the couch numbing myself with youtube and porn. If I do not do this I start become obsessive.

 

[spicedapplelover]

I go to parties but never really feel like I belong it's just a part of life that I feel like I'm required to participate in

 

[Unununium]

Just posted exactly about this in the self introduction thread.

I used to enjoy playing games and watching movies but I can't seem to find anything interesting now.

Being starved of social interaction, I thought it would be nice to have a voice (only) call with someone from here and just mostly listen, with some app where you don't have to reveal any identifying info like real names or phone numbers or anything. Still not entirely sure if that's allowed by the rules, but basically if anyone wanted to talk to me about anything at all, I'd be glad to just listen.

Alternatively, I was thinking, wouldn't it be possible for some of us to get into any kind of social and lighthearted online PC gaming together? Something easy just for fun, nothing to stress over about.

 

[Autumn11]

Yep yep. Lately, I think I've been trying more though.

 

[StolenLife]

Same. I just scroll reddit and facebook. Then again, it's not like I have anyone to go out with.

 

[lunex]

Pretty much

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Shrink all of existence down to your immediate surroundings - i believe its called solipsism, and pretend everyone is an NPC. Problem solved.

Psych ward is good training for this

 

[Insomniac]

Laying in bed all day is the only thing someone can do that litteraly doesn't harm the the environment or hurt anyone else.

I did that for a long time but eventually got desperate to leave my parents house because I was paying rent with my mental health.

 

[blitz]

Nothing brings me happiness anymore. I can sit down for hours on end staring at something without moving. I've forgotten how to have fun and feel like a robot. The thought of going outside gives me anxiety and I rush home to do nothing.

 

[GlassAlwaysEmpty]

I live alone and have very little motivation to do anything.
Struggling a lot recently so I'm trying to sleep as much as I can to escape from life, spending most my days at the moment on sleeping tablets so I'm conscious as little time as possible.
It's actually pretty good until I wake up.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes and I'm not even doing the things I should be doing- tidying, cleaning and looking for work.

Do you think it's partly a hangover from covid? I barely even leave the house now.

 

[Dark Moon]

I don't do much either, I just game mostly and that's it.

 

[manukahoney]

Sometimes I go for big walks in the hills or near the ocean. I go to the supermarket and I look very normal (whatever that means) and I like to pretend that I do not live my life in hiding.

But mostly I stay in bed and look at random shit online and have moments of futile hope.

 

[CatLover]

I go through phases like this, at the moment there are SOME things I'm not enjoying exactly, but finding a passable way to pass the time. One thing I don't know if anyone else can relate to is how the IDEA of things is often much more enjoyable to me than the reality. Examples for me are books and video games. I have bought so many recently, but rarely actually play or read them. Sometimes I make an effort to do so, and usually just end up disappointed. The book that sounded so great on the back cover was actually terribly written or about something completely different to what I thought it would be. The game was just not very good as a game and the control system sucked and couldn't be re-mapped, or it was just exactly like another game or whatever. Suddenly looking at things too closely makes the 'magic' leave them and they just become boring and ordinary. I think that's probably the same for people too, sometimes I 'fall in love' with someone because I think they're something they're not, once I've spent more time with them I realise they're just like everyone else, nothing special. It's not great - makes me not want to bother reading or playing games or getting to know people better... or doing ANYTHING really :(

 

[Zegers]

It's like a chain get up (i've been sleeping badly for years)
take a shower and the outlook of day is empty < depression saps my mood < the no mood demotivates which leads to sadness and apathy among other variables. Then i lay down in bed and scroll phone mindlessly, sometimes ate, sometimes read a book, sometimes take a brief walk, and at night i haven't climbed the Sisyphus rock, but it doesn't matter because tomorrow it starts all over again.