Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
509
This is pretty much me. In society I'm pretty much useless. I mean I have intrinsic value in the eyes of God but otherwise I'm an aging woman soon to be a homeless u might see begging with cardboard sign at your local Walmart corner.
 
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DeadHead

Belief is the enemy of knowledge
Aug 20, 2023
292
Yes, they were the best years and I was in the best shape.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,223
If I really wanted to start a recovery mission I have to start from the level I had when I left high school. From this point of view I'm not better off than when I was out of high school. I'm also pretty much useless in society and not productive (kinda aged NEET).
 
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aGoodDayToDie

Arcanist
Jun 30, 2023
460
Life was shit then, and it is even worse now. Fuck life.
 
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
In high school i would listen to uplifting music before bed with grand dreams of beginning anew, getting fit and confident.

Well, im 25 now and i don't have sheet, I've been almost a hermit that entire time, a working hermit atleast.

I did hit that "Goal" it worked, i got fit and more confident, then i realised the misery never left me, i just had more youthful willpower in the tank.

It's dead now, but as I've said to others here, i feel alot more at peace letting it all go, fuck being a corporate cum-bucket.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
I'm 30, but I feel you. I even live at home. Yay me.
 
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AInilam

AInilam

Student
Dec 17, 2023
173
Posts like these make me glad I'm choosing to do it before I get too old. People keep telling me it gets better as I get older but I don't think that'll be the case for me.
 
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carac

"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
May 27, 2023
1,099
I'm 46 and I feel like I'm just starting out in life like an 18 year old due to a lot of set backs
 
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Sluggish_Slump

Sluggish_Slump

Specialist
Mar 29, 2023
300
Have been going in circles ever since graduating high school but the circles are spiriling downwards
 
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ChangeWaiter

Member
Oct 23, 2023
45
I'm 46 and I feel like I'm just starting out in life like an 18 year old due to a lot of set backs
Same at 36, tried and tried and then miserably failed. Live at my moms couch now, cause otherwise would be homeless. My mom used to have strength to get me out do stuff, now she kind of let's it be despite criticism from the relatives. I'm an absolute burden to the surrounding and very good people like my mom. I feel awful every day and every day I have less strength to change the situation.
 
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NoOneLovesMiMi

NoOneLovesMiMi

Just Me
May 27, 2023
114
This is pretty much me. In society I'm pretty much useless. I mean I have intrinsic value in the eyes of God but otherwise I'm an aging woman soon to be a homeless u might see begging with cardboard sign at your local Walmart corner.
I honestly can't believe I made it this far.
I'm proud that I did survive.
I survived without the friendship I wish I had.
Without the family I wanted.
No education.
And I made a little life that I cultivated.
I always said when I die it be nice if I had my own place.
I didn't achieve my own place till my mid 30s.
I did good.
So no it didn't get better in my perception.
But look how far you've come.
Don't worry about anything else and I know that's hard but even if for a second.
Look how far you made it💗
Best wishes
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,426
In some ways, it feels like that. In terms of worth- despite working hard and spending shit loads of money on two degrees, I'll likely be looking for a wage slave job soon. In which, I'm sure they'd much prefer to employ someone younger who may actually have more recent and relevant experience. It probably won't be forver, I'll likely get back to what I learnt at some point. Still, I can't help but think I should have trained in something more useful and employable- like a trade. I suspect people who focused on sensible careers are doing much better. Really though, I'd much rather just quit it all than keep trying.
 
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NumbItAll

NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,099
I'm not there yet but I will be eventually. I'm the biggest loser I know, and it will only get worse with age. I've been NEETing since high school and have no ambition. What am I gonna do, slave away at a miserable job and then go home to an empty apartment? No thanks, I checked out of life at age 15.
 
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ThymeToLeave

ThymeToLeave

Adventurer
Dec 12, 2023
142
Yes, I checked out a very long time ago. If my parents weren't supporting my useless ass I'd be homeless.
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
509
Posts like these make me glad I'm choosing to do it before I get too old. People keep telling me it gets better as I get older but I don't think that'll be the case for me.
It could get better for u, but I understand that it is hard to be optimistic. Just don't view my experience as a determinant. I made a lot of big mistakes in life along with having autism I didn't know about.
Have been going in circles ever since graduating high school but the circles are spiriling downwards
That's what my experience was after high school 😢 I felt abandoned and failed by my family and by institutions.
 
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mrelief82

Broken to 1000 pcs
Nov 23, 2023
128
I was much better in high school and actually till i was 37 it was ok. Now its been nightmare few years already …
 
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