Discussion Anybody else completely lost interest in music since ctb decision?

[Bigyeah]

Have lost interest in everything ... I used to love music and sport ( football ) but now nothing .... Everything just seems meaningless

Couldn't agree with you more. Music, physical activity, seeing friends & family. Nothing give me the "feels" regardless of what it is. Makes it worse during the summer.

 

[sadstuffie]

Same. I used to be able to sit & do nothing but listen to music. But I can't anymore.
I sit & make playlists for different moods most of the afternoon because it somehow helps me feel better & distracted, but I can't imagine actually listening to a song.

 

[Anthagonos]

I have lost interest in everything I think.

Pretty much. Music was a big part of my life, too. I have a B.Mus.Ed. and was a music teacher in schools for a few years. In the past few months, I don't really care about music: it doesn't help or hinder my mood. I just breaks up the monotonous silence. But so can YouTube in the background.

The only thing I listen to is asmr hair dryer sound or vacuum cleaner. Sometimes I take a real one to hear the sound and feel the heat.

 

[Moonbounce]

This kinda thing comes in waves for me but these last few days have certainly been down days. I usually spend my free time playing video games or editing photos or yeah listening to music but I've mostly been just meditating, or blankly watching television. At least it's given me an excuse explore the entire MCU.

 

[Emily123]

i lost interest in many things but not music . i live with music . however there is a long time that i can't dance

 

[esse_est_percipi]

hair dryer sound or vacuum cleaner

same here.
The sound is weirdly calming.

 

[Captive of Mind]

lost interest BECAUSE of that.....no. but i do occasionally go through these moments where nothing is right. i dont want sit i dont want to stand i dont want to lay down, i dont want listen to music or but i do want to listen to music. i call it "i just dont want to" because i literally want to do nothing. but nothing is impossible so i just feel empty and uncomfortable until it passes

Damn, I feel this so often and it is a major reason for wanting to ctb. Especially when I'm talking with someone. It's like, whatever I say or do is wrong and is making things uncomfortable for me and the other person. And trying to end the conversation feels even worse. Ignoring people and avoiding interaction just as bad.

 

[Nature_is_God]

Music has been one of the few things that have provided my happiness throughout these last few years. I'd be damned if I leave without it, but who knows, maybe I'll get disinterested in it when I decide to CTB but I hope not.

 

[Fedrea]

Yes, music and most other things

 

[airboy_a380]

music used to be my favourite thing. Now I can't stand listen to it, unless I'm high.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

@falloutcarter13 I saw your avatar for this thread and I have to hope that you've found music and games again...

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Music is the only thing that keeps my soul alive.

 

[Bauhaus]

Much less now, partly becos I feel anhedonic but also becos I have difficulty bearing sound, I wear earplugs 24/7.
While in the past I could appreciate EBM, industrial, breakcore on a pretty loud volume, which is now impossible.

 

[inactive]

Seeing his old threads get bumped is going to kill me from now on, aw :(

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I went or a long drive today and realised that music doesn't do to me what it used to. It can't get in anymore. (I think when I write my emails I'm going to let myself feel it). This made me think about this post. For now, music is just something to fill noise.

After the drive, I went for a walk . I brought my camera to take pictures (something my therapist asked me to do) and as I was walking I realised that I didn't have music. I always have music playing. I was stuck with just my thoughts. I hated it. I didn't think about anything except how I don't care about anything anymore. I walked and just went through all the things that used to have meaning to me - especially music - but mean nothing now. Nothing - not good, not bad - just nothing. It's a very strange state to be in, sort of numb apathetic peace.