Simple question: If you could choose between CTB or time travelling into the past, which would you pick? Is there any time in your life that you'd like to travel back to if you could? Let's say that you retain your memories (but not your state of mind, depression, etc. which return to what they were then) and have the ability to change things too.
I would take that offer and for me there would be two times I'd consider going back to.
The first is my final year of high school. There were fewer actual classes and a lot more creative projects. And I've always been a creative person so I loved that. I spent a lot of time with two friends practicing a play and whatnot. After that we'd grab some pita and play Halo. That was always enjoyable.
Beyond that this was the year I met my first girlfriend. She really made me feel good about myself and loved. Overall she gave me so many happy moments.
And then after that I got to go to college and everything seemed to be going well for me.
Of course, she'd break up with me around this time. And my social and failure anxiety would ruin my college experience. But if I could go back I feel like I could've changed all of that. She was still in love with me when she ended things and actually wanted me back (even though I didn't know it at the time) so I probably could've repaired that relationship. And if I'd found my current psychologist years earlier then my social anxiety wouldn't have ever grown so out of hand and I probably could've done okay in college. Or taken a year off first as I originally wanted to (but my parents pressured me into going when I knew I wasn't ready instead).
Then the second time I'd go back to if I could was just last year. Exactly one year ago I was two days away from going on my second date with my previous girlfriend. The date would go well. In fact, we'd go to a scientific lecture (we both loved science). Then we'd go to the bar downstairs and talk for like two hours. Then the bar closed and we went to the elevator and we talked for another hour at the elevator because we didn't want the night to end. I'd go home so happy from that date and she already said she'd want a next one. Then by the end of 2022 we'd kiss for the first time and become a couple. She'd give me some of my happiest moments ever throughout 2023.
And I feel like with what I know now I could've made it so that the relationship would still exist today... And we'd still be together. Maybe even laying in each other's arms right now.
So yeah. If instead of CTBding I could go back to either of those times, I would.
Edit: Just to be clear, I'm talking about any time after you were born. So I'm not including answers like "stop myself from being concieved." My question was solely about periods of time DURING your life.
I would take that offer and for me there would be two times I'd consider going back to.
The first is my final year of high school. There were fewer actual classes and a lot more creative projects. And I've always been a creative person so I loved that. I spent a lot of time with two friends practicing a play and whatnot. After that we'd grab some pita and play Halo. That was always enjoyable.
Beyond that this was the year I met my first girlfriend. She really made me feel good about myself and loved. Overall she gave me so many happy moments.
And then after that I got to go to college and everything seemed to be going well for me.
Of course, she'd break up with me around this time. And my social and failure anxiety would ruin my college experience. But if I could go back I feel like I could've changed all of that. She was still in love with me when she ended things and actually wanted me back (even though I didn't know it at the time) so I probably could've repaired that relationship. And if I'd found my current psychologist years earlier then my social anxiety wouldn't have ever grown so out of hand and I probably could've done okay in college. Or taken a year off first as I originally wanted to (but my parents pressured me into going when I knew I wasn't ready instead).
Then the second time I'd go back to if I could was just last year. Exactly one year ago I was two days away from going on my second date with my previous girlfriend. The date would go well. In fact, we'd go to a scientific lecture (we both loved science). Then we'd go to the bar downstairs and talk for like two hours. Then the bar closed and we went to the elevator and we talked for another hour at the elevator because we didn't want the night to end. I'd go home so happy from that date and she already said she'd want a next one. Then by the end of 2022 we'd kiss for the first time and become a couple. She'd give me some of my happiest moments ever throughout 2023.
And I feel like with what I know now I could've made it so that the relationship would still exist today... And we'd still be together. Maybe even laying in each other's arms right now.
So yeah. If instead of CTBding I could go back to either of those times, I would.
Edit: Just to be clear, I'm talking about any time after you were born. So I'm not including answers like "stop myself from being concieved." My question was solely about periods of time DURING your life.
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