Any so called "failed genius's" here

[DeadKennedy]

sorry if i am not making sense in this paragraph. not literally a genius, but higher intelligence in ways that other people noticed? sure. I was diagnosed with autism really young, and was put thru all of these early intervention therapies that i barely remember(just like behavioral therapy i think? i was 3 lmao). part of that might have made me more "rounded" in "intelligence" as a kid, although i realize now that i might have been subconsciously masking a lot and the cracks are beginning to show now that my mental health is in a tailspin. but what is making me "failed" more than anything has been my lack of motivation. didnt have to push myself in school as a kid, but i also didnt ever work hard to improve so by the time high school started i was not the "prodigy" many made me out to be in primary school. In primary school i had some standardized test scores that the school said was the best they had seen from my grade, but by freshman year i was really only above average, and now im literally abt to flunk senior yr of hs, or at least get my college decision rescinded. as a kid i was told i was gonna move mountains but now most of my classmates from that time in my life have surpassed me. in the grand scheme of things im not entirely failed but i feel like so much potential has been lost, and i feel no reason to keep moving forward. i feel like intelligence+autism has also made anxiety/overthinking/selfhatred worse

 

[Tobacco]

I won an academic prize when finishing elementary. In the top 1,000 of the country that year.

I can't finish college. Turns out Pathological Demand Avoidance is stronger than intelligence.

 

[Malaria]

I'm in this photo and I don't like it

 

[tbroken]

I have big brain and when i was young i had a really good logic/mathematical brain. I also won a little competition.
But life gave me other problems to care about. I had bad luck, trauma and other random problems and I matured the idea(partially wrong) that society hates me.
It is not true, society doesn't hate me, but the matter is always WHERE/WHO/WHEN you are, and if you are not on the winner's wagon you have to survive,so basically every thing I did, I did it to survive.
PPL are not to be trusted, especially if you are depressed, especially if they know you are worth something or you are intelligent(they can use you), especially if you have properties or similar they can suck on. Since I was depressed, I didn't care only about my studies but I only cared about surviving at all costs.

I had a really bad damage and other problems, that still make me avoidant. I know it is not good for me and I will never be happy, but my brain tells me to survive.
When i was heavily depressed, ppl abused me and i made a lot of mess with my life. Those scenarios will never repeat again.

I'm great bed fan also, it is my best friend.

 

[thealteredmind]

Mmhm I know I'm talented with magic and music. I mean I have A LOT of potential.

 

[xoirse]

at a very young age, my parents kinda forced me into chess training and into tournaments. due to the constant pressure they put on me in academics as well, i excelled but barely really passed their expectations. it went from actually doing my best and just doing it in order to catch up with the deadline when i was so burnt out from both the demands of school and my parents. my autism plays a huge part in this as well.

 

[sserafim]

I won an academic prize when finishing elementary. In the top 1,000 of the country that year.

I can't finish college. Turns out Pathological Demand Avoidance is stronger than intelligence.

I think I have Pathological Demand Avoidance too. I finished college though

at a very young age, my parents kinda forced me into chess training and into tournaments. due to the constant pressure they put on me in academics as well, i excelled but barely really passed their expectations. it went from actually doing my best and just doing it in order to catch up with the deadline when i was so burnt out from both the demands of school and my parents. my autism plays a huge part in this as well.

I think I'm in a state of burnout right now. I've been in it ever since graduating college almost 2 years ago. I'm just burnt out from everything

 

[Tobacco]

I think I have Pathological Demand Avoidance too. I finished college though

At least you could do that. If I had felt that college was an obligation I probably could have. Who knows how much I would have suffered in the way.

The thing is, in 2022 I started some sort of coding bootcamp and I barely passed the first two levels but when I reached the third one, it was just 4 hours a week but I just couldn't. Probably it was that I was allowed right before it and all along the pandemic to just do nothing at home and watch youtube and netflix. Whatever it is I don't know how to crawl out of this.

 

[Softwind]

I did really well in school... and because of that I got bullied and isolated by my classmates...
Later, I changed schools, and since they had new subjects and they had a different teaching language, I struggled with some subjects... Which apparently meant I was super dumb or smt...
I gave up on doing well in school, and it honestly makes me sad that I got bullied during my childhood for nothing...