Some type of irrational belief that if I hold on just a little longer things could get better. I don't now why I keep holding on. I've been on this endless cycle of sniffing "copium" and I ran all out last year. Time and time again life has shown me that it doesn't get better so idk why I'm still holding on. Last year is when my anhedonia started to seriously kick in too. I just can't stop thinking about the possibility that I could ctb prematurely before seeing a future where I am actually happy (even though I know it's not true)
HillWhereIWillRest
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- Apr 21, 2020
- 43
My family is toxic and I have no friends. I wish I died in an accident.
She's beautiful! You'd better take care of that beauty!
You gotta meet my girl, she's a beautiful cheap extra brut champagne!
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EmbraceOfTheVoid
Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
- Mar 29, 2020
- 689
If it makes you feel better I'm pretty sure I was an accident.
HillWhereIWillRest
Offline
- Apr 21, 2020
- 43
I was not an accident, but I was a mistake. You know the song Wrong (Depeche Mode)? It's the story of my life.
Oozzy
Member
- Jan 19, 2021
- 84
My family will be very sad and my cat will be alone.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,798
NormaJeane
Member
- Mar 24, 2021
- 648
Suicidefriends, life is just waiting for death. When we are young and healthy most people do not think about death, they only think about how to live, but they can die any moment. When we are old, very sick, disabled, in pain or almost old this will change and we will think about death and suicide, but suicide requires planning. When a person is old, many friends and relatives have died so you will be lonely and have nothing to live for. But anyone can be alone in this society - the more overpopulation in a town - the more loneliness. Life is meaningless for us all because we are going to die and because life is meaningless it is not strange that we have nothing to live for. We humans do not know why we were born, who we are, what we are suppose to do on this planet and what to expect. I have never had better Internetfriends than members here on Sanctioned suicide.
DunnoWhyButYeah
~*-*~
- Apr 3, 2020
- 374
Kids are my only reason to be still here I think. BTW your dog's name is common name here where I live.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,034
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,025
I have a cat and it can be nice to have a pet as they are better company than humans. I don't think I have a reason to be alive, I only exist here as I was brought into this world with no choice and it is hard to die/have no right to die, so I feel trapped on this earth.
Even if some things make me feel better it isn't worth suffering for decades. I just don't like living and I've accepted that fact. Life is just pointless anyway, all we do is wait around to die.
Even if some things make me feel better it isn't worth suffering for decades. I just don't like living and I've accepted that fact. Life is just pointless anyway, all we do is wait around to die.
newave3
I want out
- Nov 21, 2020
- 2,774
Reasons for living? Let me think......can't think of one.
However I can think of a dozen reasons to die.
However I can think of a dozen reasons to die.
eternalmelancholy
waiting for the bus
- Mar 24, 2021
- 1,169
This is the worst part. Waiting out this limbo period before we ctb/die. Some people have cool jobs, interesting hobbies and loved ones to fill the time. When you have a shit job, no hobbies and distrust people in general, life is just a long and pointless waiting game.
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