Help Any other resource besides PPH?

[looking_for_backup]

Heya! Looking for some advice here. Looking for a method that would be easy enough to carry out should I need to. Planning on keeping it as a backup plan right now. I heard about this place a long time ago and used its advice for an attempt a few years ago (which I botched obviously). Anyways long story short with my rights being legislated away more and more every day I figured I should get myself ready with an escape plan if things continue and I can't get the healthcare interventions I need to have a life worth living. I've read through PPH and all the methods either require medication that is not legal to possess in my country (not ideal if I'm holding onto it as a backup plan) or require prescription-only antiemetics. Yes I know I can just lie to my doc to try and get a prescription but the trouble is, because of my previous attempt I'm on a sort of "watchlist" when it comes to doctors and suddenly asking for anti-emetics when I already have a history of poisoning for suicide would probably tip them off. And even if it didn't, any visit to the doctor is a risk for me because, while I am on the waiting list for bottom surgery (transfem) any sign of mental or physical health issues could get me kicked off. And I dont *want* to kill myself if I can avoid it, and I avoid it by getting bottom surgery. I've considered inert gas but I don't live alone and a big nitrogen tank would probably raise suspicions, especially if its just sitting their as a backup... So my question is: is there any realistic and reliable option that isnt listen in PPH? Ideally one where I get to die in my own home? Thanks in advance.