Any other parents here?

[ablmnop]

How to deal with the guilt?

 

[thedaywillcome]

How to deal with hell of life. Whats worse for you?

 

[SpinTop555]

Yes... My situation is that it will be beneficial all round

 

[ablmnop]

Yes... My situation is that it will be beneficial all round

Would you be comfortable sharing why you feel that way?

 

[SpinTop555]

Would you be comfortable sharing why you feel that way?

Well, I truly believe my child will be have a better life with their other parent, they are happy, have a nuclear, stable family, and I have only myself, I don't believe things will improve with me in any way, and therefore my child will grow and thrive in a positive household, filled with love, positivity and joy, and I will finally stop being in constant emotional pain and no-one will ever have to deal with me again

 

[Darkest sasquatch]

Well, I truly believe my child will be have a better life with their other parent, they are happy, have a nuclear, stable family, and I have only myself, I don't believe things will improve with me in any way, and therefore my child will grow and thrive in a positive household, filled with love, positivity and joy, and I will finally stop being in constant emotional pain and no-one will ever have to deal with me again

Trust me they won't. All they will do is wonder why they where not good enough to save you . I Buried my mum after she killed herself and all I want to do is ctb. I have kids now and they are the reason I am still here

 

[LacunaLacrimalis]

I've accepted that I can't leave my son alone in this world - therefore I'll wait until he's grown and has a whole support system to help him through my loss. Hopefully a spouse with a big family!

 

[Red Scare]

I've accepted that I can't leave my son alone in this world - therefore I'll wait until he's grown and has a whole support system to help him through my loss. Hopefully a spouse with a big family!

You're a good person.

If I had a kid, I would never consider killing myself because I have seen first hand the trauma it can inflict on them. Hell, I couldnt even bring myself to do it when I had a cat that depended on me.

 

[treetop.grazer]

I have 3 children, they're all grown up now, one has her own house, 2 at uni. I'm struggling so much paying for uni that I think my life insurance policy will at least pay everything off.

 

[og.]

if you succeed you wont feel guilt so dont worry

 

[Red Scare]

if you succeed you wont feel guilt so dont worry

I have 3 children, they're all grown up now, one has her own house, 2 at uni. I'm struggling so much paying for uni that I think my life insurance policy will at least pay everything off.

Just imagine how bad your child would feel about attending or finishing up school if they knew that paying for it stressed you out so bad that you killed yourself.

If it were me, I'd never be able to forgive myself.

 

[downndone2]

I have a grown daughter on her own and son with 2 yrs left at uni. I've been homebound for last 2 yrs because of some really unfortunate events. I have to wait until 2023 so they will get my life insurance. Bonus if I die in an unfortunate accident but I never leave the house.
I feel extreme guilt but i havent been the mom theyve known for several yrs now.

 

[LacunaLacrimalis]

You're a good person.

If I had a kid, I would never consider killing myself because I have seen first hand the trauma it can inflict on them. Hell, I couldnt even bring myself to do it when I had a cat that depended on me.

Yeah, it's really tricky with a kid. When ppl are in a super dark place, they often believe that their kids or others will be better off without them, but that's def not me.

Gotta make sure he's grown and supported — gonna leave him at least $2M in life insurance - gonna make sure he doesn't know it was suicide - and gonna make sure he knows that I'm at peace with dying. It will still hurt a lot, but no matter what, I'll die sometime…so there's no way for me to save him from the pain of my death. It's just a matter of when